A time for healing...
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Uploaded by castorgirl on Apr 15, 2007
Having a bit of a rough time at the moment, so trying to be creative in the ways I tell myself to continue in the healing journey and not give up.
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Exactly the same with me. I'd see therapists once or twice and run the other way. Denial for six years and now I'm ready to deal with the dissociation. I've got a million miles to go. Not easy.
iraqidolphin 3 years ago
Weird aye :)
Great gaping holes were appearing in the coping mechanisms before then, but 35 was when we realised we couldn't keep on pretending everything was alright.
We'd tried therapy a couple of times, but never for more than 5 sessions and never talking about the abuse - sometimes used the therapists questioning about abuse as a reason to stop seeing them - they might be too suggestive and want abuse to have occurred etc. Great way to stay in denial... :)
Hope you're getting help now
Sophie
castorgirl 3 years ago
35 me too!!
iraqidolphin 3 years ago
I totally agree.These are the type of people i had in my life.I didnt see it, i was so blind.
cheekyleopard 3 years ago
No worries... we're all human :)
Sophie
castorgirl 3 years ago
No they were weak for re-victimising you, if they were stronger they would have seen that you needed protection and not "sniffed out" someone to hurt. Sorry I get a bit wound up when people continue to use those that were victimised when they couldn't or didn't have a voice.
Castorgirl...
castorgirl 3 years ago
Yup healing is a full time job... give yourself that time. Whether you believe it or not at this moment - you are worth it!
castorgirl 3 years ago
Sorry for posting twice, didnt think the original had added! Doh!
cheekyleopard 3 years ago
Yeah like a chameleon. A puppet for everyone elses wishs. Everyone else took everything they hated about themselves and put into into me. So not only did i have my own massive problems,i became everyone elses problems aswell! Basically i can see that my whole life ive been playing out these repressed memories, so ive been re-victimising myself! I just thought it was normal.Then i used to defend myself and lash out, and then apologise afterwards making myself look stupid and weak!
cheekyleopard 3 years ago
Yea like a chameleon. Sometimes it even feels like im being manipulative, which i obviously aint. Its survival. Conform to very1 elses wants and needs and then we will be safe.even with people ive known for 10 years. Even worse with 2 or 3 people you know at the same time. Have to wear 3 different masks at the same time. Every1 elses favourite little puppet! Thats who i am.Then when i do get angry becoz i get frustrated with myself its always out of proportion and i apologise. CAnt win!
cheekyleopard 3 years ago