Gone Away (Original Song)

This is a song about what happens when a child grows up in an abusive household - how they lose their sense of self as they give up fighting for themselves to avoid getting hurt...

GONE AWAY

I don't know when I gave up the fight Closed all the doors and shut the windows tight
Locked inside and on my knees, with only the one
I could never learn to please, I wanted to though
The breaking down begins with these seemingly small attacks

I don't know when I lost the nerve
Up and told my body that it didn't work I wrung my hands and cried aloud, for someone somewhere
To come along and figure out I was dying in there
I'm standing still there even now

Cause when you never came I went away Took all of the blame and decided there was nothing left to say
I thought it would be easier that way And you know it was

But here in my life I'm 31
Staying disconnected's got me come undone
I'm still alone inside my head picking broken glass up
Still alone inside my bed trying to get my ass up
I'm still waiting for the right words to be said

Cause when you never came I went away Took all of the blame and decided there was nothing left to say
I thought it would be easier that way And you know it was

Seeing what I wanted through that dirty window pane
Sitting in the corner weighted down by all the shame
Of wanting and needing and hoping and pleading and not knowing what to do
Of wishing and waiting my heart always aching and finding my way back to you... Finding my way back to you..

Cause when you never came I went away Took all of the blame and decided there was nothing left to say
I thought it would be easier that way But you know it's not...
Anymore

music & lyrics copyright 2004 Amy MacClain

Category:

Music

Tags:

• folk
• indie
• unsigned
• pop
• acoustic
• Amy
• MacClain
• original
• personal
• life
• child
• abuse
• codependence

[stickynyki]

great song!

[biffbyford]

Awesome. Let's talk about this one Ames...I wanna play it! (Utah Guy :Op)

[kivahanz]

As usual, amazing lyrics and passion. kudos.

[yorkie2014]

amazing vocals yet again.

[LateNotes]

thanks

[LateNotes]

whew...