stressed.

not a thorough update. but yep! :)

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[mysticfaerieluna]

Wait a second......... You took/take Ephedra? (The reason I am clarifying is because I have been taking it for so many years. Ive stopped, started, tried to stop, started agin....and so on.)

[paledreams]

@mysticfaerieluna I took ephedra for yeeears. quit for a while. and took it this summer (but I'm off it now). nasty stuff.

[jayjean72]

Your road appears to be a rough one. But,hang in there! Things will get better. All the things you mentioned are temporary. Getting a job...sooner or later you will get one. For now take what you can get. Explain to your landlord your situation,maybe he/she will be willing to work things out with you. Take out sometime to help others...shelter,etc. You will be surprise how much you will feel better helping those less fortunate than yourself. You have purpose and your not wasting your life.

[paledreams]

@jayjean72 thanks for the support and positivity! :)

[sumkindawunnerful]

I think being disordered is a part of being human [we all have our quirks and demons], you just have to keep trying to make it something that doesn't harm you or damage you terribly. Which is what you're doing! Please remember not to be too hard on yourself. Sending good vibrations and love to you, please update again soon. <3

[paledreams]

@sumkindawunnerful thanks for all the support! and I will certainly try to update more often :)

[keldration]

I just love you! You are so ballsy for moving out of the country.

Please say more detail about art therapy or refer me to another vid. :)

[becksh23]

I thought ephedra was illegal in the US?

[abbeysambivalence]

i would LOVE to hear info abt ur experience with ephedra! it would help me a lot! xoxo abbey!

[jas111000]

@paledreams yeah, no need to explain. I can understand you feeling like that's something you need to do. Hopefully you'll hear something back soon.

[StengthForRecovery]

Girl, I hear you. I just graduated in May and have been applying to/searching for a "big girl job" since Marchish. The jobs market is tough! I'm nannying part-time right now and living at home, but I completely get the whole "life being on hold" business. This time of transition makes me feel like a failure which in turn has caused my depression to get our of control and is definitely triggering my eating disorder. Good luck on the jobs and I hope your stress becomes more manageable. :)

[etrox318]

Good to hear from you! I feel that way quite often about wasting my life in my disorder. Keep searching hard, & it will come to you!

Sometimes doctors suck. You just have to find the right one for you.

<3