Original Rap - Take my urgency - Rapitfly

You look at me now and see me smiling
But little do you know that inside Im crying
This whole façade I show isnt at all true
My spirits so bruised that its black and its blue
Im just an actor playing a part in a role
While chronic pain sucks my life from my soul
I dont enjoy life like I did at one time
The only thing I got right now are my rhymes
Complex Regional Pain Syndrome
The pain I feel burns right down through my bones
Sometimes the fire is so debilitating
Especially when it throbs and is resonating
Right now the only thing I feel is aggression
As my life is going on I am past depression
At times I dont want to live anymore
Cause deep down inside theres an internal war


When I look to the future what do I see
Oh thats me filing for bankruptcy
For over two years havent been able to work
With the constant hurt feeling like a total jerk
People think that I let myself go broke
Getting help from the government is a total joke
Ive already lost so much
Happiness is a fantasy I cant even touch
This monster took everything good away from me
And replaced it with lots of hostility
I am now living at my parents house
Being quiet in the middle of the night like a mouse
This is hard for someone who can not get to sleep
Alone in my room no one listens while I weep
I am so upset that my life is full of dread
I cant seem to see a bright future up ahead

It hurts so much and I hate to complain
Every hour is a struggle but I think that I maintain
But the purpose of this song is to get my feelings out
If I dont I will kill so just please let me shout

Dont see me in a wedding Cant fix up my own bedding
Tomorrows what Im dreading For I dont know where Im heading
Moneys what Im fretting cause Nothings what Im getting
I worry that its spreading Its thin water that Im treading
Cant stop the sweating Foggy brain keeps forgetting
Its Rage what Im Repenting Hurtings what Im resenting
Trust is something Im regretting Suicide is what Im betting
Abuse to be is what Im letting RSD is so upsetting

I have cried and screamed till I couldnt anymore
I cant concentrate, living my life is a massive chore
My arm really hurts and my hand is really swollen
I want my life back I hate that it was stolen

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[IsThisTourettes]

LOVE IT!! AMAZING!!!

[NotYourAverageOne]

Thanks, so much! It means a lot to hear.

[JrFarias11]

Damm..im Impressed

[NotYourAverageOne]

Thank you, that means a lot!

[tocreate112]

Wow you sure know how to put how your feeling to words then to music. You're a very good creative person. Great Job!

[a1dzcannon]

Are you a boy with a high voice or one of them lesbo girls? Apart from that good lol

[IndianYungster33]

duude how old are you?  your sick kidd keep on going, and if you gottaa good quality mic and program wanna do a collab. you got what it takes-- Stoney

[NotYourAverageOne]

Thanks so much, I appreciate everything :)

[hispanic1976]

BTW, I sent it to ELLEN DEGENERES.

Seriously. I did.

Chica

[hispanic1976]

U were amazing! I love this whole video.

Chica

[2012whatnext]

Yeah i can really relate, don't havemuch money problems but i ain't no rich mother fucker either. but you're pretty damn good. i write, sure as hell don't rap, but to be able to do that it's fucking awesome :) keep trying.

[Grimace]

Awesome I love to write raps as well just don't know where to get beats to use or how to make beats I made one beat once but thats it. All my poetry and writings are in the form of rap