SOBRIETY - My Bumpy Ride on the Wagon

Today marks 9 months sober.
It's not been all smooth sailing.. i've been on and off the wagon for years, but i really feel like i am beating alcohol for good this time.

forgive me for the duration of this video.. It is really long.. but it says all i wanted to say.. and includes some flash-backs to some of my old vlogs too.

Here is the letter i wrote to alcohol:

"Dear Alcohol,
It is time i leave you once and for all.
You have been such a strong influence in my life for far too long, and i have not had the strength to say no to you.
When we were separated in 2007, I grew and blossomed like a flower. It was a great time for me. Everything in my life improved.
You came back 18 months later and wanted to get together socially and i foolishly agreed.
In the following few months, you worked your way back into my life full time and undid all the good i had done for myself in your absence.
Why did i allow that to happen? Why did i let you back in? I KNOW you are bad for me, and i know you are not trying to help me.. so whats wrong with me?
Im addicted to you.. for some reason.
But guess what.. Ive found that strength again to divorce you. Ive got that drive in me to slam the door on you and become the flower i was before.
You are very good at disguising yourself as fun, as something i want or need.. and you can stalk me, you can try to sneak back up on me. But ive fallen for it too many times.. I am stronger than you, and i WILL beat you.
Goodbye."


Peace & L.O.V.E.

~TJ.
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[IwannabeSOBER]

Once again, I am trying to sober up. Ive decided to make it public. I am making a vlog. I am very active right now. But I need help. I drink at home alone like you did. But I am an alcoholic, and need your help. I started tonight. And its gonna be a long ride.

[TabloidJunk]

@IwannabeSOBER I am glad to hear you are making steps to improve your life and stand up against alcohol. It is a very real battle and one that will require all of your attention. Good on u for starting a vlog, I found it very helpful, especially in the beginning.

I'm here.

TJ

[lawschoolpro]

I am going through this exact thing right now. I've been an alcoholic for 10 years. Today, I'm on one day of sobriety again, for god knows how many times. pray for me, as I'm praying for you, and all alcoholics I come in contact with.

[TabloidJunk]

@lawschoolpro Good luck! - just stay busy and within a few days you'll start to remember how good it feels to be sober.

Without alcohol to hold you back.. you can achieve anything!

[NerdyMcCool]

Thank you for making this video. Truly inspiring.

[TabloidJunk]

@NerdyMcCool Thanks for watching and leaving this lovely comment :-)

[kellykel34]

where are you now?

[odatmatt]

thanks for sharing this and I hope you are still clean!! I have been going to Na for 17 years nad on 1-28-11 , I had 11 years clean! so don't give up!!!

[CleanAndSober101]

Thanks for sharing this TJ. I can relate to a lot of what you are saying in this video. I tried for years to solve the "alcohol problem" with logic and intellect. I finally realized that alcoholism is an emotional problem...not an academic one. Addressing it from that perspective, I have been able to stay sober for 3 years and 11 months, one day at a time.

Be careful because that alcohol is some sneaky shit!

[sprocketrocket07]

I wish someone would have video'd my brother when he was so blighted. I'm sorry to say it, but he is very unpleasant to say the least. He recently moved in with a fellow of similar habits and witnessed first hand (while he was sober) some very similar behaviour to his own when so affected. He promptly moved out as he couldn't handle it! My nephew(16yo) was amused and said "This guy did to Dad what he used to do to us..." Perhaps this experience was a good one after all; I hope so.

[sprocketrocket07]

Thank you for sharing TJ.

Although I just never got that interested in alcohol I can relate; was a smoker and dabbled with marijuana. Actually cannot recall how many years since I had a drink, smoke, etc. Hope to never smoke again but wouldn't classify myself as a non-drinker nonetheless. Some people find it odd when I don't partake of any, but I just don't bother to respond or attempt to explain; I just don't understand it too. Lost far too many good friends through alcohol etc :o)

[bcpmx]

Hey TJ, this is probably my favourite video of yours. Not that I don't enjoy you being snarky and funny, but this is by far the most genuine and humble. And honest. We're all proud of you.

To celebrate, you need to listen to Kelly Clarkson's Sober and crank up the volume!