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Sleeping Sickness- Monica Grix COVER ( ithink)

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[lili271]

thanks for making videos again, i love watching you, its almost scary how much i can relate. oh and i've bpd so i can imagine that you have it, too. and i think you shouldn't loose any weight. your body looks beautiful.

[SmackerYO]

@lili271

thank you for the support, i appreciate it sooo much!

[SmackerYO]

@lili271

thank you for the support, i appreciate it sooo much!

[sweetcitybaby22]

Im the same way, I have trouble expressing how im feeling and what I want to say, so instead of saying what I want I usually just get mad :(

[SmackerYO]

@sweetcitybaby22

yeah. Getting mad sucks though :( bahhh

[pyrochickscreamx]

So..okay. i just found your videos today...and i dont want to come off rude or anything like that. You think youre fat...?? Becuase i think youre beautiful, and im confused...im not even 20 years old yet, i turn 20 in about 7 days...and im about 220 pounds...i just dont get it....terribly confused by these videos..

[pandafreak08]

Question.

How tall are you?

I'm 5'9 and 146

Which is kinda normal I guess but the "small" frame for my height is 129 or something.

So that's probably my goal to get to the small frame.

[DXAmFeMassacreXD]

i have the same problem as you exactly girl. cant freakin make sense of my thoughts it sucks!!!

[SmackerYO]

@CognitionSpeaks1

yes i completely agree.

There is no way to make someone understand your emotions, because its all based on feelings on a certain situation!

[CognitionSpeaks1]

@SmackerYO And, just so it relates to the "feeling trapped" part I wrote about, that happened when I first started dating. I was teased a lot growing up so sharing my feeling weren't easy. They still aren't because a lot of the time there are no exact words to explain a person's emotions, you know? It's just an instinctive feeling based on a situation.

[CognitionSpeaks1]

@SmackerYO I don't mind at all. We're all here for support. In high school I was having a really rough time & the depressing/self injury/general anxiety got pretty bad. The transition from middle to high school wasn't all that great for me, and I felt like my parents weren't helping me solve my issues. Therapy now is more so for the purpose of "checking in" because if I stop over a period of time, I start to go downhill again. He keeps me level-headed. :)