The Walk Unfinished (Trich)

WHAT IS THE VIDEO ABOUT?!
It's about how I am yo-yoing backwards and forwards with something I have called Trichotillomania - whereby, for various reasons, I pull out my own hair.... See this video, I explain all about it there:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CiBIXMBEqgE

"I don't want to feel like this" "It's not meant to be like this" "Just what I don't need".... Take out the love stuff and bam - for me - the lyrics fit perfectly.

Artist: Imogen Heap (Who is releasing her new album this August - YAY!!)
Song: The Walk

Q: Why upload it now when it's unfinished?
A: Its a long story - but I'm taking a break from youtube over august.... Therefore I can't post any videos.... I'm putting it up as I have talked about it - and showing you what I have proves I have actually done something..... Either upload it now - or wait till october.

Q: What is it with all the ties?
A: Look here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CiBIXMBEqgE

Q: Where are the clips in the bath from?
A: On the 16th July last year (2008) - I made a video reflecting on my feelings of an incident in Jan 2008 - I was shouting at myself basically - tthrashing out my thoughts and feelings.....
I decided to private the video last year at some point - because of the ties.... But now as more people are aware of what they mean and I feel I can put them up in a way which is okay.....

Any other questions.....? :)


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I started this video more than TWO months ago....
I had infact started editing it to "SpinWheel" - by PaperPlain.... However, half way through the song - the artist started singing about love..... I felt it didn't fit....
I considered and even tested some clips with the "Narnia Song" by Imogen Heap.... However - the mood was completely off - and the focus was on something happy.... Whereas I was/am angry and frustrated...

There are gaps - unfinished edits and clips that are out of sync - don't know why...
The last few clips are infact out of sync - they are slightly behind - grrr.... Oh well... It's unfinished anyways.

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[HeroFlame]

@waitjaya I read your comments, I understand why you think that way, but unless you have something similar to this, like smoking or drinking, sex or drug addiction. If you have a tic or turrets, severe anxiety or depression- You do NOT understand US. It is something MENTAL, that even if you want to stop, your body simply won't allow it whether it's bad for your health or not. For women especially, in a world where you need to have hair to be even "normal" it can be JUST as bad as anything else.

[EdenDespina]

Beckie,I have a blog and I would really like to write about you but I need your approval.

Please LIKE so she can see!Thank you a lot!

[arothacker1]

i feel so bad for u.

[AdultsMagazine]

you a good editor.

[JanessaIshAwesomeX3]

I have something like it, but it doesn't quite have a name for it. I am always itching myself, either if it's on my head or my face or just anywhere pretty much, I'm always itching and my body will not allow me to stop. It drives me crazy because then my hair gets greasy and everyone is like, "You need to stop doing that, you're going to pull your own skin off" And that have noticed many many times, and I really really support this. I hope you get better at managing how to deal with Trich.

[keyofawesome789]

Beckie, you seem like an amazing person and I know you can get over Trich. You are beautiful and funny. :)

[ashleew7787]

i love your hair keep it!

[minimez99]

omg you have an amazing way of expressing how you feel what editing program do you use

[amycrombz]

what programme do you use to edit? you're beautiful btw!

[HannahxGoesxRawr]

Ahah. You so amazing. If i were you.. i would just pull out dolls hair. Or umm. Is that YOUR hair is bothering you? Idk if this is Trich or not but i used to have long hair and i got stressed and annoyed by it so i kept pulling it til i got a haircut to make it short a couple of weeks ago.. :P

[TheChocoholics67]

i, myself dont have trich, however i find myself feeling the same way that beckie acts in this video ALOT. its like a ball of anger that builds up inside you because of something you cant change, and its like your fighting with yourself over it and then you just break down....i love you beckie, and i support you in every way, keep making videos! also, i bought the latest imogen heap album, they really are brilliant

[minimez99]

So like, did you argue with yourself??