i go through phases. or i would. sometimes i would think i was huge, well most of the time, but ever so often i would have these little glimpses of what i really looked like. mostly in photos. i was so skinny. i definitely looked super sick. then maybe a half an hour later i'm eating a peanut butter and jelly and some chips and puking it back up.
I have kind of had a couple of different things. I often see myself in a mirror, and I have literally blown up from the last time I looked, even minutes ago. I never know if I'm seeing myself as thinner than I really am the first time or fatter than I am the second, but the fact is that I don't know that to believe. I try to blame it on the mirror, but I don't think it is particular to angles and lighting. I really have no idea what I really look like.
Now I know that perhaps the fat rolls that I used to see where actually my ribs. Although... I don't know. I can't really believe it. I have no idea how I used to look. I think the image I have of myself now is pretty accurate. Oh, I don't know. It's so confusing.
I actually get very confused whenever anyone tells me I look good. I don't see how anyone in their right mind could ever think that.
InkyBroadwayGal 1 year ago
omg, i love that book.
turtlerxxx 2 years ago
i love that book, it changed my life
Sazzay96 2 years ago
i go through phases. or i would. sometimes i would think i was huge, well most of the time, but ever so often i would have these little glimpses of what i really looked like. mostly in photos. i was so skinny. i definitely looked super sick. then maybe a half an hour later i'm eating a peanut butter and jelly and some chips and puking it back up.
ugh.
wheniflyandlookdown 3 years ago
I have kind of had a couple of different things. I often see myself in a mirror, and I have literally blown up from the last time I looked, even minutes ago. I never know if I'm seeing myself as thinner than I really am the first time or fatter than I am the second, but the fact is that I don't know that to believe. I try to blame it on the mirror, but I don't think it is particular to angles and lighting. I really have no idea what I really look like.
frizzbug 4 years ago
Sorry. I feel so stupid for having said that now. I've changed my mind. I am fat and I always have been.
sarahbol 4 years ago
Now I know that perhaps the fat rolls that I used to see where actually my ribs. Although... I don't know. I can't really believe it. I have no idea how I used to look. I think the image I have of myself now is pretty accurate. Oh, I don't know. It's so confusing.
sarahbol 4 years ago