OUR CIVIL PARTNERSHIP

IAN I MISS YOU SO MUCH

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HIV Still Kills Guy Wrights partner, Ian Halliley, passed away on April 3 this year, shortly after they entered into a Civil Partnership. Ian tested HIV+ in August 2004, but only ever went back for one check-up and didnt return for the results. When he did go back, in October 2006, it was too late. Ian was 34 when he passed away on the Howard 2 Ward at the Royal Sussex County Hospital, Guy explains.

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He was Mr. Invincible. He was never ill, and he never had a day off sick - unless it was to get a day off work. He was a face you knew, yet you didnt. His life was on the club scene. He liked to look good and be noticed and he succeeded in both. He was a definite meet on Gaydar and up for anything. With that description you probably think he was a bit of a slag, having unsafe sex, and bound to be HIV positive.

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. Far from it. From the age of 18, Ian was the most responsible sexual partner you could want. He had hundreds of partners over the years, but he also had hundreds of condoms in his car. Whatever Ian did and whatever reputation he got, he was safe and responsible. When I first met him I laughed at the fact his glove compartment was jam-packed full of condoms! Yet I was grateful that this was the case.

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Although it hurt knowing he played the field sometimes, it was reassuring knowing he was safe. For him, for me, and for society. Ian got HIV tested every year without fail. Each December he would go to the Claude Nicol Clinic regardless of whether he had any concerns or not. It was like a yearly pilgrimage, and every year he was clear. Until August 2004. He had had safer sex at a club in London, but suspected the condom had broken. Ian was diagnosed HIV positive

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Our lives were shattered and we started to look ahead to securing our future. We bought a business with accommodation above. This was so that if Ian was taken ill, I could care for him more easily. Although I really didnt care if he passed the HIV on to me, I didnt want to be around without him. He was so responsible. He taped his shaving stick so that we didnt share, and we had distinctive toothbrushes.

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Unfortunately Ians responsibility stopped there. He was always thinking about others, and being responsible towards them, yet not to himself. After he was diagnosed HIV+ there was no immediate threat to his life or health, so in his view he was well. A year passed and all was well. Ian returned to the clinic the following December for blood tests, yet never returned for the results.

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RIP Ian.

[onslow70]

Me and my partner are having a civil partnership next year and hope to spend a lifetime together......you are both beautiful people you can see the love you both have for each other....i am so sorry for your loss ....but the love you have will live on ....i am now going to go tell my partner just wot he means to me and that i love him with all my heart....god bless you both x

[jimeaston2008]

I feel very deeply for you.  Much love. x

[syllasguto65]

woww that's what i call love.. im so sorry for ur loss... :S

[devondave99]

Very moving and honest account. I am so sorry for your loss