I Wish I Didn't Care Ch. 35 (Part 2)

((Linkity Link link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nN3zICfdKwk )))
"I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel"
When the music died down, he looked up at me over his curls, his eyes distressed.
I was silent up until now, and was unable to find my voice.
After a few moments of silence, Nick sighed.
"Don't even say it," He said quietly, his voice cracking slightly, "I know it's horrible and depressing, you don't have to say it."
"But it wasn't." I was finally able to say.
He looked up in surprise. "What?"
"That was beautiful. Sure, it was sad, but in a good way. A touching way. I really liked it."
His eyes sparkled. "R-Really? Ya mean it?"
"Of course," I said, hugging him, "But the one thing I don't get is... you said you where over all that had happened you. That you didn't care anymore..."
"Lies," He whispered in my shoulder, "The truth is, I never stopped caring. It still hurts that Amy and Elisabeth touched me. I still miss my mom. And some how... I can't bring myself to hate my dad. I still miss him too. I was lying to myself... it was all lies."
Tears began to trickle down his cheecks, and I held him close, him hiding his face in my chest.
"But you don't know how desperately I don't want to care anymore," He chocked out between his sobs, "But I do. I do care. But I wish I didn't. You don't know how desperately I wish I didn't care."
THE END
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Of season 1. :)
Don't kill me for taking so long, I had writers blocks. *hides behind a puppy*
But to make it up to you guys, I will post one chapter in ALL of my stories, and post the first chapter of not just the story I promised, but a new one as well.
Tomorrow I will post Ch. 1 in S.2 of IWIDC, which will be modeled after the song... *drum roll* PERFECT WORLD! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!
JL979, out. ;)

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• Wish
• Didn't
• Care
• Ch.
• 35
• (Part
• 2)

[tiffythekid21]

hey when are u going to upload the next one of this one and a slient cry? jw

[jonaslover979]

Haha... Sorry. Shortly after posting this my teachers where all like, "OK, just to make life harder, exams are next week and you have a test in every class this week!"

But I'll get writing now. Keep your eyes open. ;)

[mollyr66]

Omg

[jonaslover979]

Haha... "Omg" to what, may I ask?

[Jonasluver627]

amazing! yay new chapters!!!!!!! thanks for coming back :]