I woke up to a knocking noise on my bedroom door. Instead of saying come in I closed my eyes pretending not to hear. Yesterday felt like nightmare. Nat turning me down has never happened before. It is what I've been wanting. A sign that it's really over between us. Now that it has happened I don't like it. Mom kept knocking louder and louder till she gave up and opened the door.
Allie: Did it ever occur to you that the reason I didn't answer was that I wanted to be alone?
Laura: I'm sorry. When you got home I heard yelling. It sounded like you and Nat were fighting. I just wanted to check on you and see if everything is ok.
Allie: Nothing between me and Nat is ever ok. He gave me the answer that I have been wanting to hear for a long time. I should be glad but I'm not.
Laura: Maybe I can help if I knew what the answer was.
She sat down next to me on my bed.
Allie: That he doesn't want to get back together with me. And before you say anything I know that we have had many problems in the past. Him being a jerk to me everyday. But yesterday I saw the real him and reminded why I fell for him in the first place.
Laura: Through all the heartbreak you never really stopped loving him. He makes you feel special in a way nobody else can. When he isn't around he is all you can think about. You find it impossible to stay mad at him no matter how bad the thing was that he did and you don't know why. The only thing you can come up with is that when he feels miserable for what he has done your heart feels the same way.
Allie: How did you know?
Laura: That's how felt about your father. I still feel that way every single day.
Allie: What he said sounded true. That he doesn't want anything more to do with me.
Laura: If you still love him as much as you do I can bet he feels the same way.
The more I think back on last night the more it sounded like Nat was trying to convince himself more than me. Nat has always been a terrible liar. He couldn't tell me how really felt until after we broke up. It's make wonder weather those words from last night were real or not. If my heart has always been with him, then I should know. My heart is telling me that he I didn't anything that he said. Mom and I both looked at the clock.
Laura: You better hurry and get ready for school. You're already late.
I jumped out of wanting to say one more thing.
Allie: Thanks mom. I love you.
Laura: I love you to.
Mom left my room and I rushed to get myself ready. When I was all set to go I felt like I was forgetting one very important thing. I went to the window in my room and looked up at the sky. With the way I've been acting towards my dad has made me feel like a bad person. With putting my mom through misery with doing what I felt I needed to do to keep my dad alive. When really the one thing I needed to keep him alive for me was to see him.
Allie: Dad I hope you're not mad at me. I have neglected Snow White because I couldn't deal with losing you. Listening to stories about you and seeing images of you made me feel like you were still really here. Then when Nat brought me back to the ranch I could see you everywhere. When I was riding Snow white it felt like you were sitting behind like you used to do. After facing the one place where all my memories of you are made me realize that it's time to stop holding on and let you go. Because holding on has only made me cry.
Mom was yelling from downstairs.
Laura: Allie! Let's go!
Allie: Goodbye dad. I will forever miss you.
As I was walking away from the window I felt a gust of wind blow past my ears. When it disappeared I could have sworn I heard my dads voice in the wind saying 'goodbye sweetheart.' I smiled as tears rolled down my cheeks.
Saying goodbye to dad was easier than I thought. It feels like he is here with me but isn't. My dad is in the place that he was meant to be since he left me. Living in our memories and heaven. Mom was starting to get impatient while waiting for me. I went downstairs.
Laura: What was taking you so long?
Allie: I was saying goodbye to dad.
In a way I knew that she understood what I meant.
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My Prince And A White Horse Ep16 S1 endingby alliedimecofan246670 views
Epic ep :-)
nrlovela 1 year ago
Awesome =)
ThereIsANNBSeason4 1 year ago