Illusionist

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The Illusionist



Maybe its me who Im deceiving
Maybe its me who has it all wrong
Maybe its me who is thinking there was more

Every time I looked in your eyes I saw truth
Every time I was held I felt honesty
Every time I was kissed I felt sincerity

These emotions were so real to me
They helped me find love
They helped me find you

But was I to eager to find love
Was I to excitable when I met you
Was I at fault for thinking you wanted more

With you it felt original
It felt fresh
It felt new

How many times have you given someone else something new
Given someone else something fresh
Placed yourself as something original

I have finally uncloaked you
And now I see who was really being the deceived

It hurts
It pains me because it was fake
It wasnt real

But even when I found your truth
When I found the reality of it all
I played the illusion with myself

I didnt want to believe what I saw
I played into your games
I went along with what you needed from me

I was deceiving myself that you were real
That your touch was truth
That your caress was warm
That the look in your eyes was for me

I guess I was changing
I was become the chameleon that you have become
I was become the ever changing animal to give you what you need
To give me what I needed to believe

I kept pursuing the deceiver
I kept pursing what I knew wasnt real
I kept pushing to find the real you

I wish I had stopped making pretenses
I wish I had stopped making excuses
I wish I had stopped and ended the heartache when it started

But your deception was so alluring
Your web was so intriguing
It made me want to weave my own web
Made me want to change myself to another you

I believe that is what you needed
But who wants another you
Who wants another chameleon
Another illusionist

Ive decided
I cant keep changing my skin
Its starting to fall off
My real skin is showing through

I was never meant to be another chameleon
I wasnt made to be an illusionist
I cant keep deceiving myself like you have done to yourself

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