Talking about anorexia... and random...

Well, I was bored, so I decided to make a random video who mainly focuses on Anorexia and girls/guys who do it..... Please answer my question... Why do u do it?

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[krisbarber]

hey ignore all the nasty fuckers on here, i think ur great..and hot

[Alexitis]

=] thank u!!!! I'll ignore them... it was like one bored video... i'm no expert.. and thanks for the "hot" comment lol.. =] ill try to make another one so that u see how i look now. =] xoxo

[OlySiren]

i'm forced to do it by voices.

[Alexitis]

What do u mean? =(

[OlySiren]

i mean your video sucks, hoe!

[Alexitis]

Why thanks... I'll try to make them better... Ty for your comment.

[missgracegallagher]

It also made me thinner which seemed right for me because as something that doesn't really exist, I should take up as little space as possible. There's also the way it makes you feel - kind of spaced out and dizzy - it made me feel like I was just watching the world happen, not part of it myself.

I hope you never have to go through such a rubbish illness. It sucks xxx

[missgracegallagher]

So instead of trying to prove to myself that I should exist, I gave in and accepted that I shouldn't exist. But I loved being alive too much. So I distanced myself from reality. I still seemed the same to everyone but underneath I got really depressed. I stopped eating so much because eating was like acknowledging my own existence but I didn't have the right to exist. I didn't feel part of the world so it didn't seem right to take a legitimate part of the world (food) and put it inside me.

[missgracegallagher]

I reasoned that out of the millions of other "me's" that could be here in my place, one of them must be smarter than me, one must be prettier, one must be funnier etc. and from that moment on, I felt the constant need to prove my right to exist over these people. When I was younger I'd do this by being as perfect as I could be, always doing as I was told and trying my hardest in school, but as I got older, school became more competetive and I couldn't be the best any more.

[missgracegallagher]

Eating disorders don't really make sense until you've suffered with them. They're so gradual that you don't notice what you're doing and then it's too late and it feels like there's no way out. My anorexia had a really weird root. When I was 6 my dad told me about the wonders of the universe and how we're all lucky to be here because of all the events that had to happen for our existence and how many millions of slightly different people could be here in our place. I interpreted this wrongly

[andyoutwotouched]

you don't 'do' anorexia. its a mental disorder. not a diet plan. its not a decision. its a disease.

[catriona19996]

i do it cos its making me ...