Are you fighting for nothing? [read the description] :)

This song definitely hits home for me.

I've been kinda, sorta heartbroken lately. But when I found this song, I knew what I had to do. I had to assess the situation, and decide whether I was fighting for nothing or not. And although the answer to my question wasn't one that I was particularly fond of, I realized that fighting a losing battle will only hurt me more, that I deserve the best there possibly is, and that it was time to let go and move on. I cannot even explain in words how difficult these past few weeks have been for me, and how much sleep I've lost due to crying. I'm still hurt. And even sitting here right now, typing this, I'm trying to fight back tears.

But I deserve to smile. I deserve to be happy. I deserve the one thing that I tried to give him so much of: love. I deserve to be loved, wholly and unconditionally.

And who's to say that the battle wasn't won? Maybe things will turn around. Maybe he'll start acknowledging me again. Maybe he'll love me again. Maybe I'll forgive.

But I can't stay broken. And I won't stay broken. I might not be brave or tough, but I know when enough is enough. And well...I've had enough.

So. This is me, moving forward. If you want me, come find me. If you need me, convince me. If you love me, then Love me, with the big L.

If not, then you're missing out on being with a great girl. Because Mallory Kaye? Well, she's one-of-a-kind. :)


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A big thanks to Kenzie for being my camera-woman that day. :)

Oh, and here are the lyrics to the song, because I know after first listening to it, your interpretation of the words might be a little off. Hah. :)

Song: "Fighting for Nothing" by Meg & Dia

"When I was younger, I wish that I would have known better.
Better love makes a fat romance, that lasts for more than a shoe shine.
I'm older, took all the words of my mother, saying,
'It could be worse, could be born with that disease, instead of catching it first.'

So let's go back, to the first time, that I met you, in your Chevy, with your hands stretched, and me crying, screaming, 'Mercy, Mercy!'
But I know that, I was put here, to fight Vikings, in the cold war, with my arms out, in the front lines, singing, 'Dare me. Dare me.'

But these things take time, love.
These things take backbone.
And they'll tell you what you want to hear 'cause they think it's better. Better.
But you better know how to point out the liars.
You've got to weigh your wars make sure you're not fighting for nothing. Nothing.
Are you fighting for nothing, nothing?

It feels like this world has been growing slowly upside down.
Maybe I should move to China, and straighten this mess out.
Maybe I'll be a poet.
Watch all the sky for falling words.
Write about my grandma's curtains, or the lady who put the Chinese buffet in her purse.
I've got my mouth. It's a weapon.
It's a bombshell. It's a cannon.
I've got my words.
I won't give them mercy, mercy!

But these things take time, love.
These things take backbone.
And they'll tell you what they want to hear 'cause they think it's better. Better.
But you better know how to point out the liars.
You've got to weigh your wars make sure you're not fighting for nothing. Nothing.
Are you fighting for nothing, nothing?

I've got my words. I hope they hurt you.
I hope they scar you. I hope they heal you.
I hope they cut you open,
Make you see you've been warring for all the wrong reasons.
Make you see that some things are worth bruising for.
Make you see that your name is your honor code.
Make you see that your hands you're accounted for.
They can choose where your sweat and your blood will go.
Make you see your life's not to be lived alone.
Run their spit through your hair, you're worth nothing. Nothing.

But these things take time, love.
These things take backbone.
And they'll tell you what you want to hear 'cause they think it's better. Better.
But you better know how to point out the liars.
You've got to weigh your wars make sure you're not fighting for nothing. Nothing.
But these things take time, love.
These things take backbone.
And they'll tell you what you want to hear 'cause they think it's better. Better.
But you better know how to point out the liars.
You've got to weigh your wars make sure you're not fighting for nothing. Nothing.

Are you fighting for nothing, nothing?"

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• Dia
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• nothing
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[brandXnewXeyesX]

This was an absolute ingenious piece of work. :) I loved it! Everything about this video was amazing. I love the scenes where you're crying they just so much emotion in to this song.

I love this song and Meg & Dia. You did fantastic. You're just simply amazing. :)

[HerFinalDream]

@brandXnewXeyesX

Your comment made me smile quite a bit. (:

Thank you very much.

[713victoria]

Im in LOVE with this! I admire your strength in making this video & writing that, & it seems as if you're a bit doubtful of yourself,& I just want you to know, you are much stronger than you think, I may not know you personally, but i can tell just from your writing & your effort put into this video, you WILL be okay, you are a very strong,willful girl that can & will get through this &if he hurt you like that he doesnt sound like the type of guy you deserve. And remember, you ARE one-of-a-kind!

[S3miKaulitz]

thank you so much Mallory Kaye !!

I really felt stronger from your song

you were my inspiration for tonight .

I hope everything's going well in your life and be as happy as you showed to be in this video . ;)

[UnderweightGoddes]

waw... waw my dear.

[TwiNatural]

You are a beautiful person.

You are a role model.

You are a heroine.

Never forget who you are and love yourself no matter what some boy or anyone else says.

You are not broken, you are who you are and you know that now. Stay strong and never forget that there are people who Love you with a capital L and will never leave your side.

I admire you and hope to be as strong as you are.

You are beautiful and keep fighting!