Oh depression

This is my favourite poem, as I can't be bothered to write anything in here.

Dreamland by Edgar Allan Poe.

By a route obscure and lonely,
Haunted by ill angels only,
Where an Eidolon, named NIGHT,
On a black throne reigns upright,
I have reached these lands but newly
From an ultimate dim Thule-
From a wild clime that lieth, sublime,
Out of SPACE- out of TIME.

Bottomless vales and boundless floods,
And chasms, and caves, and Titan woods,
With forms that no man can discover
For the tears that drip all over;
Mountains toppling evermore
Into seas without a shore;
Seas that restlessly aspire,
Surging, unto skies of fire;
Lakes that endlessly outspread
Their lone waters- lone and dead,-
Their still waters- still and chilly
With the snows of the lolling lily.

By the lakes that thus outspread
Their lone waters, lone and dead,-
Their sad waters, sad and chilly
With the snows of the lolling lily,-
By the mountains- near the river
Murmuring lowly, murmuring ever,-
By the grey woods,- by the swamp
Where the toad and the newt encamp-
By the dismal tarns and pools
Where dwell the Ghouls,-
By each spot the most unholy-
In each nook most melancholy-
There the traveller meets aghast
Sheeted Memories of the Past-
Shrouded forms that start and sigh
As they pass the wanderer by-
White-robed forms of friends long given,
In agony, to the Earth- and Heaven.

For the heart whose woes are legion
'Tis a peaceful, soothing region-
For the spirit that walks in shadow
'Tis- oh, 'tis an Eldorado!
But the traveller, travelling through it,
May not- dare not openly view it!
Never its mysteries are exposed
To the weak human eye unclosed;
So wills its King, who hath forbid
The uplifting of the fringed lid;
And thus the sad Soul that here passes
Beholds it but through darkened glasses.

By a route obscure and lonely,
Haunted by ill angels only,
Where an Eidolon, named NIGHT,
On a black throne reigns upright,
I have wandered home but newly
From this ultimate dim Thule.

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• grief

[beingsarahc]

I don't think you can even 100% get over the loss of someone close. It gets easier, thats no doubt. I have no grandparents left. My mum's mum whom i was closest too, she died in 1986. At the time she was looking after me because my mum was out, i came downstairs and i found her dead.

My therapist thinks that amongst other traumas i've gone through, that could have been the catalyst to a lot of the problems i have now.

I do still miss her.

[chapsuk]

I know what you mean, Sarah.

Thanks for the comment <3

[taleana2002]

i cant ever keep on track of a subject either, no worries dude. Yes, i have tourettes and i hate the word too. when i get depressed, my tics chill way the hell out, chicken is good :) when im mad'depressed a break stuff then pay my friends to fix what my rage attack damaged....

[suzieqt68]

I have no idea what it would be like to lose a parent or parental figure. Please, allow yourself to be sad for however long you need. Give yourself permission. But limit it. Don't allow it to swallow you. I suffer from major depression and it is a struggle everyday to want to be on this planet. A couple months have passed since this video was posted...I sure hope you are feeling better!

:)

[BalderKongen]

Hi! I'm sorry for your loss. Just give yourself permission to be sad, cry and feel like crap for a while. There is nothing wrong with that. You are allowed to miss her and cry. I lost my grandpa 4 years ago, and I still miss him a lot and cry sometimes. I feel better afterwards. I have found that talking about it and remembering helps, so keep making vlogs, share your feelings and talk to your friends. They can listen, comfort and support you. And give you pep talks as needed. Wish you the best!

[wizafookinlaura]

ERM i like chicken sandwiches :)

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