Trying my hand at a vlog again

So yeah, I decided to try this again.
Translation follows.
Also anyone who wants to comment on the sucky signing; if it was constructive I'd prefer, I know I'm rusty.
I feel a bit stupid because what I'm doing as name sign is the sign FUNNY; which is obviously not my name sign. My name sign is L-handsape, touching the nose with the thumb. That's what I mean by rusty :p


Hi, my name is Lauren (namesign), welcome to my vlog. It's 5...
So I decided to make a new vlog for because of two things

1st thing is I worry my ASL is becoming worse. I live in Montreal and almost all deaf people here only sign LSQ. Sometimes it's hard but when you need to you learn.

2nd thins is I'm nervous, very nervous. About grad school [author's note: I know it's shittly signed, honest].

So before, when I started college, I didn't know how to sign. I sort of wanted to continue to believe I wasn't becoming deaf during my teens. I kept trying to remain a fake hearie. My parents said it was impossible anyway, so I though "maybe being deaf is a bad thing anyway".

It sucked, I didn,t have help. My grades were bad. Then I met other deaf people online and one of them went "oh... Imma teach you ASL"
I thought "awesome!"
Then I go and learned ASL, fast.

Now that I actually can have interpreters and real help in class, my grades are much better, my grades are really good. But I worry about my early grades. I worry because of them profs will think "oh I don't want a bad student". So I don't know if I can. I hope I can.

There's two things right now I really want to study.
The first is historical linguistics about sign. I want to study how far in the past people knew deaf people signed. I've got texts almost 2 or 3 thousand years old [Okay, it's a lie: only 2 thousand years old]. So you have authors who are like "oh right, the deaf, they sign, they don't talk much" and then you have others [fucking Lucretius] who are like "oh, they don't talk, they're stupid, they're like animals" [sorry I didn't know the sign for it] and then others who say "huh, animals don't sign, they speak" [Montaigne in the 1580s]. So also I want to study what hearies thought. "Oh, see! Deaf people, they don't speak... they say things with hands I think? Fascinating!" [I tried to be my most smug face ever]. Second, I want to study another sign language called Maritimes sign language (It's signed in Nova Scotia), because people say like "oh it's dead" "oh no it's still alive" and "maybe there's like super old people who still sign MSL" So maybe I can study it a bit. I want to know. Maybe I can write about it before it dies. Maybe I can record it and show it, so that people can see it, before there's nobody to remember it.

Truth is, I want to study. I like reseach.
I hope I can go to grad school.
I feel a bit better now.

Ciao

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[GoldRainGirl]

I feel a bit stupid; I missigned my own name sign; it's L-handhsape with the thumb touching the nose.

[JulieADriver]

Welcome back, Lauren! It's good to see you again.

[d3v4m0n]

It's been a long time Lauren~, you're in my thoughts and it's good to see you update :3

[Aunbal]

omg! So good to see you, Sara here! I'm getting ready for work. I'll send you a PM first chance I get hon :) *hugs*