My Near Death Experience

http://www.tamiclose.com Circumstances don't matter, only state of being matters.




You know, it's been very interesting to revisit my near death experience many, many times. It's been 26 years since it occurred, and yet it has always hovered over me as a place to remember....just like visiting home :).

Now, what is happening is I'm remembering the experience so that I can see the truth in every situation. With this said, no one has the truth outside of us, and I'll explain what I mean.

In 1984, I was six months pregnant, and awakened with intense pain in my leg. After making a phone call to my doctor, it was determined that I had a blood clot, and my doctor said I should be seen by him. My doctor's practice was located in a city where I worked, and would require a 2 hour commute. Upon giving this information to my doctor, he didn't feel it was problematic. As I was getting ready, I began to feel faint. Thus, we decided to make a mad dash to our local ER. The intensity of the pain in my leg was so great that my husband got me a wheelchair when we arrived at the hospital because I couldn't walk. While in the ER, I began to feel faint again, and was quickly wheeled into the main ER room.

This is where the near death experience occurred. I immediately entered another dimension of higher consciousness and experienced such profound peace. Even though the ER staff was rushing around frantically, and one nurse said, "We're losing her and the baby's heart rate is dropping," her words had no meaning to me. In addition, another nurse grabbed my wrist, and told me that she needed to poke a needle in my wrist and that it would hurt. Yet, you can probably imagine I felt no pain whatsoever. I was at zero point, at no meaning land....nothing had any signficance. My thoughts stopped, and the only thing that resonated was my heightened state of being. It just existed without putting any label to it. Incidentally, unbeknownst to me, my husband was told that we, the baby and I, may not make it and to prepare himself.

Then I heard my own voice say, "I just want to go to sleep." Then another voice said, "It's not your time." This is when I was given an IV of heparin, which thins the blood, and I came back into the third dimension filled with the intense pain once again. To make a long story short, I did have pulmonary emboli (clots on my lung). I did recover and delivered a beautiful baby girl, Lindsay, one month later at a bouncing 3 lbs. 11 oz...she's a whopper :).

What did this near death experience teach me?

Like I said, over the course of many years, this experience has hovered around me. Now, within the last six months, I've embraced it into my whole being. Why? Because nothing outside of me dictates anything, especially truth. The nurses comments were based on the machine I was hooked up to, and the reflection of the numbers that were being revealed. I am the co-creator with my life, along with my soul and all my beings of light. It is these co-creators which dictate the truth, and events and situations will unfold as a mechanism to reveal this truth.

I know that during that time I entered another dimension, I was given a choice to leave or to stay. Although it's not within my frame of reference to remember this, but I do know the choice was made for me to stay. With this said, the next steps were put in motion to make this a reality.

Now, I see this near death experience for the message it gives me, and know that many things happening outside of me will call into question my own truth...be it health, relationships, financial issues, etc. If I give into these things as being true, then my own truth gets distorted from coming into being, and the perception of chaos ensues.

That's why it's important to come from a higher state of consciousness that knows the truth. The ego, the physical mind, can't know the big picture. It may only see numbers and start the ol' chaos ball rolling. The numbers have no meaning in and of themselves, it's only what we've trained ourselves to look at when we see numbers...high, low, good, bad, too much, not enough. Thus, you can see how much emphasis is placed on things outside of us as truth.

We can remember one thing: Circumstances don't matter. Only state of being matters. It's that simple.!

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[ShakeMyWay]

While I agree with your perspective that you are an energy being and not just a physical being, I have to agree with the nurses' assessment of you. They weren't talking about your spiritual survival (that does survive), they were saving your physical self, and your child's physical self. While the decision to stay or go may have been spiritually ordained. They saved your butt, and deserve that acknowledgement. They were part of the plan to assist your return to physicality.

[tamiclose]

@ShakeMyWay, many perspectives of what is happening, and they all exist. There's much more than meets the eye, isn't there? Our physical eyes don't see, they condition every frame of reference until the zero point appears. Did I really return or....?

[ShakeMyWay]

@tamiclose Well, they didn't say, "We lost her." They said, from your video, "We're losing her." So, from a physical perspective, your vital signs were clearly on the decline.

[tamiclose]

@ShakeMyWay, yes, you're right!

[AbbeyIncorporated]

Loved this video. You have given me so much hope. Just knowing that there is such a place, a state of mind, help me heal myself. Also, it looks like you live somewhere really beautiful! So green and natural, I wish I could live there! x

[tamiclose]

@AbbeyIncorporated, thank you! Yes, where I live as I refer to it is the "perfect place of peace." I think it offers a profound message in myriad of ways. There is a place that exists that is labeled heaven on earth, and I believe the message is for us to "occupy" that place within.  I invite you to be the moment of existence, and discover what is right here for you. This moment is so inviting :). Much love and appreciation to you!

[ceeliewheelibin]

You have a wonderful presence Tami. You have such a calming and comforting voice. Your face is beautiful and I love your hands. I feel so very at peace with myself after watching your video. I especially loved how you gave recognition to the squirrel on your deck. What a wonderful soul you are. xxxx

[tamiclose]

@ceeliewheelibin, thank you for your kinds words! That NDE continues to teach me about peace no matter what is happening. Oh, that little squirrel...I wasn't wearing shoes, and I've had them nibble on my toes before because they're looking for treats...we give them peanuts! How beautiful that we crossed paths, and simply were in each others' presence. Much love to you!

[ShakeMyWay]

@kainc1utube I absolutely agree with you. In my opinion she wasn't giving credit to the team that was working on her. That was my issue. Yes, I agree that she and Spirit decided she would come back.

[kainc1utube]

@ShakeMyWay why can't we validate each other? Sure medical science has helped us to have a choice to return.. that's what all the NDE's are telling you... there's enuf evidence to show that there are times where people have choices but we don't get the choice of those who move on now do we? Unless you have a better gift than most, how can you say it wasn't her choice, once medical teams gave it to her

[ShakeMyWay]

@ShakeMyWay So, they could have been the instruments of the intended "return."

[ShakeMyWay]

@ShakeMyWay So, I can't say how grave the situation was, in totality, without knowing all interventions that were happening. I just know that sometimes, humans are put in our path to help bring about the conditions that are spiritually intended.

[ShakeMyWay]

@ShakeMyWay Having also worked in the field of women/babies, I'd say that it was less than 4 minutes, because at that point, they would have cut you open to get your daughter out.