The Anorexic Diaries

A video depicting my life as an anorexic. Contains a letter to anorexia, as well as entries I wrote in a personal diary regarding my eating disorder. May be triggering.

THIS VIDEO WAS MADE WHEN I WAS A STRUGGLING ANOREXIC. I am no longer struggling; I am an anorexic in RECOVERY now.

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• anorexia
• anorexic
• eating
• disorder
• bulimia
• binge
• starve
• thin
• skinny
• fat
• weight
• diary
• letter

[clazza01]

being ultra thin will not make you pretty if you are not pretty before being ultra thin

being pretty before being ultra thin makes you less pretty

[tripurity]

@clazza01 Anorexia is not about looking pretty. Sure, we'd like to be thin, but if I were ever to reach an emaciated weight, I know to the outside world I would look ugly. But I wouldn't care, it would still be beautiful and accomplishing to me.

[Gnomeregan]

Saying this as a bulimic; I hate the way it makes me think, I hate the way everything is always about control, I hate what it does to my body, my mind, my life & the lives of the people around me.

Keep fighting everyone, don't let the disorder win.

[cornbreadconverse]

why would you want to be skinny?!??!?! im tryna gain weight, i want curves!!!

[prettythin94]

@95openyourmind16 Thanks <3

[sacraficialangel7]

@FramingKelly I try :)

[FramingKelly]

@sacraficialangel7 Awh i will, thankyou for being so lovely! :)

[sacraficialangel7]

@FramingKelly ok hun. Just make sure you actually take the doctor's advice on board. If the doctor says you're a healthy weight, then don't try to lose weight, 'cos you'll damage yourself.

[FramingKelly]

@sacraficialangel7 Thankyou! I had a doctors appointment but i never went to it, but i've got another one now so i will go to that one :)

[sacraficialangel7]

@notsoSecretMe *hugs* you need to go to your doctor hun. even if you can't drop weight, you'll likely be malnourished if you're eating so little.

[sacraficialangel7]

@FramingKelly talk to your doctor about it. Maybe he/she can put you on a healthy diet plan (if you need it), or simply re-build your confidence if you're a healthy weight (which you probably are).

[FramingKelly]

I'm so confused, i really want to lose weight and be thin, but part of my mind is saying that it won't be healthy to lose weight, and i know it's going to cause me so many more problems, but i just want to drop around ten pounds so i can be about seven stone, although i know that if i start losing weight i won't want to stop, argh! Help!

[95openyourmind16]

what i dont understand is why you would try to bring someone else down that was struggling with the same problem you were. Telling someone that they are sucking in, who is obviously anorexic, is like telling them they are fat. You'd think people who lived through anorexia and are now supposedly in "recovery" would know what saying that could trigger in that person. Unless of course you get your kicks out of critisizing other anorexics. In that case you are not recovering, you are bullying.