jonasdreams - where the future begins - 2

NICKS POV -
I wrapped my arms around her. My head buried into her shoulder, he perfect hair soaking up all my tears. Every morning, we did the same thing. It was like living the same day over and over again, and i didn't know how long i could go on like this. I wanted to be happy again, but i knew Paige couldn't be. I wanted to know why, but i could never find the courage to ask her. I was too afraid to lose her. If i lost Paige now, after everything i might die.

Finally, i found enough courage to stop crying. She would never knew i had been, unless she finally decided to change this stupid routine.
"Paige, we need to talk. Seriously." I looked at her sternly. her sad face looked up at me, her emotion didn't change. How could she be so selfish?!

"Paige. Look at yourself! You look dead!" uhoh. Why couldnt i find the write words when it mattered most?
" Look, i love you, Paige. Your my world. But you can't live like this. We could never, ever of kept that child. It wasn't meant to be. We couldn't have lived normal lives. We would look so stupid. Think of what people would have said to us, Paige. What would that have done to both of us? Have you ANY idea how bad it would have been?! Don't you see, it was the ONLY option. That child happened, that child was a mistake. You know that. You promised me you wouldn't let this take over your life." i chuckled, remembering her words.
"You fooled me. I believed that you wouldnt. I believed you could get over it. I dont know who you are, or what you want from me anymore." My hands balled up, and silently, the tears that had been building up burst out. I jumped up in anger. i couldnt stay anymore. I had to get out.


My feet pounded down the wooden stairs, and my mother rushed out of the kitchen.
"NICHOLAS!"
I brushed past her and ran outside and into the garden. I was in the forest before i knew where my feet were going. The smell of it cleared my head and i knew that nobody would come looking for me here. I searched until the rushing of water told me that i was close to where i wanted to be. I rushed across the planks of wood that kevin and I had placed across the stream many years ago, knowing that the cabin would be able to hold the secrets i needed to let out. My feet found the path quickly, and my eyes lingered on the one massive tree. It looked like it was too old to be standing, and my fingers found the right holes too easily. I climbed up the tree as fast as i could, and when i got to the top i broke down.

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this wouldn't be such a bore if people commented it.
pssssh. i though you would LIKE this.
thats harsh, but its true. If you comment, im going to post if not im going to stop.
period.

anyway - on a happier note.
TWO WEEKS TODAY. i'll be there. waiting. so, so, so close to a dream that i've kept for too long.
YAY! (:

em x

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This is getting really good.