eternity. 34

"You did what?" I asked Joe.

"I broke up with her." he said with a half smile. I slipped my hand out of his and looked at him.

"Why?" I asked. He looked thrown off, like I should've known why already.

"Because she hurt you." he said honestly. I stepped back a little bit and furrowed my eyebrows. I knew that Kaycee probably wasn't the best person ever, but I didn't want to be the reason Joe broke up with her. An expression of concern washed over Joe's face and he continued to look at me, as if looking for an answer of why I wasn't happy.

"You broke up with her because of me?"

"It was the right thing to do." he said. One of the many things I loved about Joe was that in the darkest of times he was always true to himself and everyone around him. I rubbed my fingers roughly over my forehead and tried not to look at him. I moved my hand over my eyes and let the tears fall, but then I whiped them away and tugged at my hair without saying a word to him. I couldn't. "You're not happy.." Joe said softly. Tears built up in my eyes when I looked at him and when I spoke my voice was shaky.

"I can't be here for you.." I paused to find the words, but I just couldn't find the right ones. Kevin and Nick ran out of the arena and called for Joe to come back to rehearsal. Joe only waved his finger at them and continued to wait for me to talk. "I have to go." I said. I stepped closer to him and kissed his cheek quickly. When I pulled back he was more confused than I've ever seen him before, but I couldn't explain to him what I was thinking if I couldn't even figure it out either. I turned and started walking to the hotel, and when I was halfway there my cell phone started vibrating. I pulled it out of my pocket and read the text message sent from Joe. "Amanda, come to my room @ 6. We need to talk." it said. I sighed and put the phone back in my pocket. It was 5:00 now, which gave me an hour to sort out everything I was feeling and find out how to tell him. I considered lieing about everything, but it seemed like Joe knew me better than I knew myself sometimes. He'd be able to see through it.

When 5:55 rolled around I told Steph and my parents that I was just going to go for a walk, but I really was going downstairs to Joe's room. When I got to the second floor I saw Nick and Kevin sitting on the ground and as I approached them I couldn't help but laugh.

"What happened?" I asked.

"Joe kicked us out." Kevin said flatly. I laughed through my nerves and knocked on the door. I heard Joe walking to the door and I felt my face growing hotter. He opened the door and grabbed my wrist and pulled me in before Kevin and Nick could yell at him for letting me in and kicking them out. There were two chairs in the middle of the room facing each other and all other electronics were off. I sat in one of the seats and Joe sat across from me. We were so close that our knees were softly touching, which sent an electric shock throughout my body. Me, Joe, and no interruptions.

"I'm going old school, if you haven't noticed." he joked. I looked down at my lap and didn't laugh, which only made things more awkward. I knew I had to say something, but I forgot everything I had planned to say.

"I.." I started, but stopped to figure out where to go from there. "You and me are.." I started again, but paused. I realized it wasn't working and I looked at Joe strait on. "I've fallen in love with you." I said. It was the first time I had ever told him I loved him, and it felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. But, there was also a lot of other things that I was still thinking. "And I hate that I have, but I did and I have no power to stop it." Joe sat up to say something, but I stopped him. I was on a roll and I was afraid that if I stopped now I would never be able to say it again. "I just feel like no matter how hard I try to make it work, it never will."

"Why do you think it would never work?" Joe asked steadily, while my voice began to shake.

"Well, you travel across the world now. You're famous. We'd never be able to see each other." I listed the reasons. I had thought about them over and over to myself in my head, but as I said them out loud they sounded pretty stupid. While I continued to speak Joe stood up forcefully and sent the chair he was sitting in flying back a couple feet.

"I lost everything when I lost you!" he said, pointing his finger angrily at me. I stood up, too.

"And you think I didn't!?" I yelled back. "Everything came crashing down when you left!"

"So why can't we make it work, Amanda?" he said loudly, getting close to my face. We were both angry, and we both still had angry expressions, but when he spoke again it was calmer and softer. "Give me twenty good reasons."




if you want the full affect of the last line, listen to the song in the video by thirsty merc.
if you forget thirty merc's signifigance in this story, read chapter 30 again.

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[JoBrosLover92]

Is Thirsty Merc a British group? They sound like they have an accent

[jonassssnap]

austrailian. :)

[DanielleDeshongAct]

i was sitting here with a gallon of ice cream and as i sat i ate faster. its now gone

[jonassssnap]

ahahahha

thankyouuu :)

[teamjonas123]

he kicked out nick and kevin!!! hahahahaha LOL this is a great chapter!!!!! next one fast!!!!!

[jonassssnap]

:):):)

[LaRee11]

okay, you and your little typing hands, they need to start working at like 13462 mph, because i think i might break a bone in my body if i can't read the next one soon. hahahah(:

[ilovenickjonas719]

i read this like 5 times thinking if i read this long enough she with post 35 but you didnt and now i am very disappointed in you.. so i think you should post right now!!!!!!! before i find out where you are and make you tell me everything that is going to happen!

[Korijonas55]

me 2!! hahaha

[JonasBrotherLover444]

i went to thirsty merc concert they are so awesome

[JoBrosLover92]

this is like my new favorite song!

I keep listening to it

And every time I listen to it, it makes me think of Joe....which is GREAT!

[JoBrosLover92]

oh, cool!

[JoBrosLover92]

OMJ!

The song goes PERFECTLY with the story!

[ignavusDavus0]

omj amazing, wat song was that? it was really good

[iluvmileyandjobros]

LOL "im going old school, if you haven't noticed." I LUV WHEN JOE KICKS KEVIN AND NICK OUT AND THEY LAUGH!!!! lol i can SO SEE THEM DOING THAT!!!!!!!

[mrsjessicajonas27]

it feels like it's been an ETERNiTY since the last oneee! i know it's only been 2 days; but i love them sooo muchhhhh<3