So Far To Go (Remix) [Produced by J. Dilla] - "Rockwell's Fear"

This song is about a man who realizes what he had once it's too late to ever get it again.

Lyrics:

Somethin in me is gone now, I can't get it back I tried/
I look in the mirror like my reflection's not concise/
I'm standin solo/ but I see you standing next to me so that solitary image is a no go/
2 yrs ago to the day/ I flirted with you so you'd bring attention my way/
Selfish, but as timed passed I became selfless/ but in that selflessness was selfishness/
See?/ Even I confuse me/ but what I know for a fact was I loved you B/ (Seeths)
That word stings/ who knew love could bring pain, I guess this is a new breed/
We first met, in a modern metropolis/ at my residence called....from then on there was no stoppin us/
Matinee here, feature film there, I still love how you did your hair/
What's that you sprayed on your body, damn that's nice/
Didn't know noses could do double takes but I smelled that..twice/
Let's not forget your unparalleled vision/ freein me to new things that I'd otherwise be restricted/
What to wash my face wit, new food, "baby taste this"/ & I would like it/ but without you I would've never tried it/
Fuck a Jag/ you're my Ford Escort/ takin me to new heights, but often I'd take detours/
Back to my nonconforming comfort zone/
It's a bittersweet funny/ everyday things point out my blundering/
Those lil punk ass dogs girls put in bags/
& I grin, but I'm so sad/
The cold of the wind can't match, the cold of knowin what I had/
I'm walkin in the rain soaked/
Tryin to stifle the taste of you but it's makin me choke/
I guess it was half my fault/
cus half of me was invested in her/
and the other in rhymes that'll make ya head burn/
whenever she would leave, out comes the mic/
and when she comes back I'm lying extra hard like,
she asked "What'd you do today?" & I'd say "nothing"/
but I guess she got a whiff of what I was brewin/
the inconsistencies in my story would lead her to snooping/
exploring documents on my PC/
tryin to piece together the missing half of me/
& when I would get cornered/
I would do shit that would make her wanna leave/
like flirting wit girls or textin with others in the evening/
it was my bleek attempt to strike out on my own but I've been roc'd ever since/
I talked to a specialist and she said it's compound pain/
pain from tha past and newfound shame/
i'm like my past does not define me/
she asked was your father a womanizer and that shit silenced me/
followin a pattern i didn't wanna travel/
self fulfilling prophecy like a mother not surprised her child's life is ended by the gavel/
and I flow hard/ too bad my love matches that flow/
fuckin up a conversation because rhymes made me stutter when I spoke/
I cant stop thinking if I wanted to/ she asks is it another woman and Im like I only want you boo/
In my dreams Im so unfaithful/ lovin the mic more than the food she puts on the table/
Part of me is restrained in the civilian kingdom/ and the other is a rebel like Wallace yellin FREEDOM!!/
Ill never break, Ill never fold/
She thinks Im not ready by blaming it on the fact that Im not that old/
Yes I know this stories been told/
Relationship struggles due to a mans secret/
He keeps it darker than on the day of an eclipse/
All the girls I flirted wit/
They meant nothing/ it was me/ I couldnt trust me to trust you to love me/
Im still in the rain as I told you before/
Bawlin like a baby hopin nobody catches on/
But the passers by seem to notice me cry/
Then I figured out why/
Cus the raindrops from the sky/ cant hide/ my tears/
Cus the ones from my eyes are thicker than them/
And I come upon a poetry bar/
My messy, soaked appearance proves I dont have a car/
I drag my ass to the bar/ head hung low/
Bartender asks what will you have young fellow/
And I dont drink/ so I asked for water and he still asked for my ID/
30 minutes pass and Ive only stared at the glass/
The only time the water moved was from the vibration of someone walkin past/
At that moment I hear a womans voice on the microphone/
Shes reading a poem about raising a child alone/
I chuckle cus I know I made my girl feel the same way/
My lack of social skills prove I wasnt really raised/
But my rhyme schemes would lead you to believe Im so eloquent/
But when Im put on the spot I cant say shit/
I talked more to myself than to the woman I shared common interests with/
Which is how I ended up in my current predicament/
I pray to God to bring her back/
But I forget I was the one who prayed Hed send her/
So this is a new prayer, He aint answerin that/
I look at my phone waitin on it to ring but it dont/
I was so afraid of her/ I became what I was afraid of most, alone/
RIP J. DILLA

Fear..fear

~RiGRockwell

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[UltraDOG17]

keep it up man

[RiGolettoMicFiend]

thank you man

[hiphop4life88]

man once again simply classic

[RiGolettoMicFiend]

Thanks man, be sure to tell your friends about me, I can only go so far without help!

[Bi99aDK]

dude this joint iz NICE!!!!!!! Lovin' it!!

[RiGolettoMicFiend]

thanks man please rate the song and share it!

[junesue1205]

j dilla is a true g

[bizzybee]

this iz FIYAH>........ FA real ... I JUS CANT WAIT til we take OVA THA RAP GAME.... THA TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE... iam LUVING IT

[TravieDarkie]

This is hella good...

Then again everything you do is hella good!

[RiGolettoMicFiend]

thanks man I love that line too, please rate the track and share it!