safe | doctor/rose {11/11}

{love just isn't s a f e;}

This is dedicated to anyone who's lost someone they love.

(you guys don't have to read this part... It's just a vent/letter to the boy this video is about.)

Salt Lake City, Utah. November 11th, 2007. That was the night we met.

We got to talk, and got to know each other. The room was filled with all kinds of people, but if I'm being honest... You held my attention more than anyone. And I held yours, apparently. Maybe it was out of pity; after all, I was in a wheelchair with two braces on my legs. (We're much like Nessa and Bock, don't you think?) That night, we talked about lots of things -- from music, to our middle names, to the next stop on the H&G tour.

It wasn't love at first sight. I honestly didn't start to have feelings for you until the first time I heard you sing. Then, later on in the year, I would read your little posts and replies that you wrote and felt so... happy. At that point, I thought I was in love.

The next time we saw each other face-to-face was in Rocklin, California, sometime in the summer. You were on stage, and I was once again in the audience. I forget which song it was, but sometime during the show, you saw me. I don't know how you recognized me (as I was without the wheelchair this time around), but you paused for a second and smiled. Later that night, we got to talk again. You told me you were so happy to see me, and you were extremely thankful that I was there, cheering you guys on.

After that, my mother thought I was going to marry you. "I saw the way you looked at each other," She would say. I hadn't told my mom that I had feelings for you, though it was probably pretty obvious. I believe she told me that to make me happy. Or maybe she took pity on me, too.

The last time we met was October 2008. I had never seen you so happy. The fact that I could make you smile like that still makes me giddy beyond belief. That was one of the best days of my life... but unfortunately, this was the last time we ever talked.

A misunderstanding occurred later that year. I won't go into any details here, because I really don't want to say any names and get myself in even more trouble. However, I can say that due to my extreme naivety and gullibility, I cut off all contact with you and built a wall between us. I lost the most beautiful person I had ever met, and it's my own fault.

Words cannot describe how much regret I have. My only wish is to be forgiven by you, so that one day I can forgive myself. That is the reason I uploaded this video -- that there's a chance you might see this one day, and read this letter.

The thing is, every part of me screams that I'm still in love with you. But I'm much too young to fall in love, so it can't be true. I won't let it be true.

So this is it, I guess. I wish you the best in all that you do. Good luck with college, and try not to hurt yourself too much on the skate ramp. (Goodness gracious, boy, I've never seen so many broken arms in one year.) I wish you luck with your girlfriend. She is extremely lucky.

Love, Natalie.

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See this is why I never upload vent videos. -__- I wish I had time to fix all the errors but I really wanted to get this up today.

[all info is in the video]

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• doctor who
• britt nicole
• 11/11/11
• november 11th
• ugh don't know what to write
• so i think i'll walk 500 miles
• -pokerface-

[niome13665]

^_^ Your letter was soooo sweet and touching! I hope the guy you wrote it to does read it, but even if he doesn't I hope you find a love that will last forever and ever!

[millerjajtfco]

@niome13665 wow, that has to be one of the sweetest comments I've ever received on any of my videos. Thank you so much, and God bless you!

[thisisuselessify]

:'(

[millerjajtfco]

@thisisuselessify <333 *hugs*

[thisisuselessify]

@millerjajtfco *sniffs* Thank you.... quite the amazing video by the way!

[millerjajtfco]

@thisisuselessify d'aww, thank you so much.(:

[thisisuselessify]

@millerjajtfco :) anytime! <3