Anorexia, struggling with restriction & exercise. Part 2

Just a continuation from part 1

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• anorexia
• bulimia
• COE
• BED
• ED-NOS
• struggling
• recovery
• mental distress
• coping mechanism
• exercise
• restricting
• binge
• purge
• laxatives
• BPD

[anawings]

hey hunni I just watched this and omg YOU ARE NOT A FRAUD! That nurse was so wrong to say that. You don't have to be skin and bones to get help let alone to actually have an eating disorder. Comments like that can be so detrimental to us. I love you hun u r so beautiful and u deserve to be free of this and get the help with anorexia that u need:) hugs hun xxxx

[painfulsoulbleeding]

Thank you. The nurse who said the comment is actually my aunt! She's not a mental health nurse, but it was still kinda inappropriate for her to say to me. Thanks for your comment. It means so much to me that you watch my videos and take the time to leave comments.

*hugs*

[misstiggykins]

So, all-in-all, I understand 100% with your pain, fear etc. When I finally decided that I really wanted to recover, in 2006, my biggest fear was that once I looked well that I would be considered recovered. I returned to work at a BMI of 18 feeling 'exposed' and terribly vulnerable. Everyone said "I'm so pleased you're better". I felt like replying "actually I'm really fucked up in my head still". That said, I do believe in the importance of weight gain for full recovery.

Take care xxx

[painfulsoulbleeding]

I agree that weight gain is essential to be in recovery. It's so difficult when people presume we're 'fixed/ cured/ better' because we no longer look physically ill. If only they knew it was a MENTAL illness, and nobody can be judged by appearances alone. Weight restoration does not equal full recovery! It's just the very start of a long and painful journey.

[misstiggykins]

Fraud? What is a 'proper' anorexic? There isn't such a thing. Our personal experiences of EDs are so individual. Anorexia for me was not about being pretty or attractive either, and that's why I despise all the media stuff that suggests we develop anorexia because we want to look like celebrities. Nope, it's about controlling emotions. I remember feeling 'safe' when my BMI was 13, because I was unattractive. Weight is important for physical recovery but it doesn't reflect our total recovery....

[Sia118]

You are no fraud and you deserve treatment, You are amzing and beautiful, and you WILL get through this xoxo

[sarah190291]

hi i just wanted to say thanks for doing these videos. I cant imagine how hard they must have been to do but they have really helped me to understand my friend who has been suffering from anorexia for a long time. I really hope with all my heart that in the future it wont be such a confusing struggle for you and that you get to where you want to be x

[SuperCrazybeautiful1]

i think you are extremely brave to explain exactly how you are feeling x i can relate so much, i am now 30, have been suffering with anorexia/over-exercise since i was 16 x i hope that you will continue to fight and choose life ! love from laura x

[anawings]

Your aunt! Oh gosh that is um well unfortunate to say the least hun:( Keep persisting. We all support you every step of this journey. Love Chels xxx

[hotchocolatesundae]

Just wanted to say that you desrcribe this illness so well, and it is very sad to see how how sad you often look when talking about how you feel. I have a lot of compassion for you

[hotchocolatesundae]

I completely agree with you

[intothepast89]

hey claire, have just watched both parts of your video, and i can totally relate to everything u say. sending 10000 of hugs and kisses u will get through this - YOU ARE NOT A FRAUD i believe in you - you can get through this - lots of love kim xoxoxo

[painfulsoulbleeding]

Thank you for such lovely comments. It means a lot.

[CinnamonPhoenix]

third i really do relate to a lot of what you say... if that helps in any way

and finally i just hope so much you find the help you truly deserve and until then keep fighting because you're worth life and deserve more than this and i believe you are strong enough to keep holding on

thinkng of you and sending all my love xxx