ILLtragic - Dark Times

It seems like I have nothing else to live for
They say all you gotta do is give more
My life is shattered like a piece of broken glass
I need to know that my hope is back
It's too late now, I have a frozen past
If there's light behind a door, God should open that
If life is a puzzle, I don't got the pieces
I'm doing what I can to stop my demons
My life is a mess, there's lots of reasons
Cold black winter day, it's just not my season
Feels like my life is running out of luck
It hurt me to find out what love does
Life is a difficult class and I can't focus
Trying to make it and everyone says that's hopeless
To get over the pain, will it be possible?
I gotta find a way to get through these obstacles
I could really use some sunray through these dark times
But I wouldn't be able to see it because my hearts blind

I've done a lot of things that I regret
Would the girl of my dreams be happier if we never met?
You'd be suicidal if you saw what I've been through
And knowing that everything you hear is said against you
Nobody understands my pain, nobody understands my sorrow
I doubt I'll see the day of tomorrow
The distance between me and Heaven seems far though
I'm mad at my dad cause he wasn't there
It's clear to me that he doesn't care
Sitting on the hills, watching the clouds go by
I saw one that looked like my uncle and I cried
But my homiez were there to hold me down
Without them, I don't know where I'd be now
I swear to God, but I'm gunna pray to him
Hopefully he listens and lets me say my sins
I'm not sure how long I can keep livin
I put a fake smile on when it's Christmas and Thanksgivin
God, if there's hope please don't say your kiddin

Sitting on my bed, listening to the sound of rain
More or less, I still feel the pain
Deep within my chest, heart beat getting drained
Thoughts about death are constantly surrounding my brain
Hoping that my guardian angel will show me the way
Living life is painful, they say it'll be ok
Thought that was true, but I don't believe that
What should I do? Never got any positive feed back
What's gonna happen when I put the mic down?
So I'm expressin my thoughts and feelings right now
But in the end, is it even worth it?
I ask myself "Does my life have a purpose?"
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hurtin
Smile on my face but I'm only pretending
This is the last letter I'll be sending
Unlike a fairy tale, there won't be a happy ending
Rethinking suicide, I've gotta stay alive cause you never know
Maybe there's a possibility that I can grow

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