lily's life - one shot-d-box (true story)

lily's life

Ive been living in a wonder world for most my live.
Scared of being hurt, scared of being bettered and most of all scared to fall in love!

It all happened 9 years ago! I can remember it like it was yesterday!
It was a Saturday, I blocked out the date. It was a Saturday I remember because my mum, sister and I always go to my grannys on that day!

I was 6 and my sister was 8! It was around 8 in the morning. My mum was out at the shops and my dad was getting ready for work. I know right working on a Saturday but he drove Lorries or some company. He was about to head out the door just as I ran down the stairs! Daddy? Can I baby-sit rose? my older sister! Sure! he gave me a hug and I ran up the stairs to rose! She made me put her trousers on her (since I was babysitting her)

When my mum came home and we went to my grannys house we were as happy as can be, that is until two police officers came to my grannys door! Rose and I didnt know that was going on! They took are mum into the living room while we were in the kitchen with granny! I can remember thinking why are they talking to mummy she hasnt done nothing wrong and when I said that rose just said dad I didnt know what she meant but she was dead right!
The police left and me and rose went in to see my mum, she was crying (maybe you have figured out what happened already) she told us to sit down and when the worst thing for a 6 and 8 year old to be told- are dad killed him self! I cant remember him saying I love you that day but I think he might have! I ended up having an asthma attack! But I also found out I had a brother 1 year older than me which meant one year after rose! Ive never met him and Im now 15! I was told he lives in Scotland! Some times I wonder about him! Does he know about his dad? Did he ever meet him? Does he know about me and rose? Does he even care?

My dad took me out of his live instead of just leaving us and letting us choose if we wanted to see him but we didnt get a vote in the matter! So now I find it hard to let people in thinking they might just leave me, maybe not the way he did but still leave me!

This is my first upload on youtube, and its about my life! No one knows any of this apart from my best friend who I let her read my diary. But she doesnt know the half just like you! Please leave a comment a tell me what you think!

Love Lilly
Or as you may know me as keep-believing

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[nickychick17]

@myself513 thank you! 

[myself513]

awww :( so sad, i'm so sorry it happened, really :'( thank you for telling me this, i know you didn't have to... you sure are a strong girl :)