When I First Felt Fat, and Not so Sassy

The story of when I lost the ability to run around innocently in my bathing suit, not a care in the world about how I looked.

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People & Blogs

Tags:

• fat
• realization
• epiphany
• loss
• of
• innocense
• family
• reunion
• story
• cousin
• mother
• mirror
• thighs
• overweight
• ugly
• diet
• summer

[stephgrandprix]

It's not as easy as just "getting over it".

[Jerilynski]

I feel so bad when I see such beautiful people like you worried about how you look. Your soo pretty and skinny, your perfect :)

[cmisamazingful]

i can't remember what made me think i'm fat. it was soo long ago, since like the first or second grade i would cry because i thought i was so fat and ugly. i didn't start starving myself and bingeing and purging until last year though.

[killerbrownie37]

you are describing my life story.. even tho you probably won't read this, i just want you to know that you are inspiring.

[heatheredmiston]

I'm sorry that it had to be your mom who triggered this in you. I understand exactly how you feel. For me, I was 10 years old and just starting puberty. I started to feel self-conscious about my thighs getting bigger. I didn't want to wear skirts or shorts anymore because I didn't like feeling them touch. One summer I went to visit family out of state and when I came back, my mom told me I had gotten chubby... And that's when I really lost my innocence... Thank you for sharing this. :)

[wolfesong]

Very insightful.. thank you for the video!

I was always a shy girl and each year since kindergarten, I grew more self conscious about myself. I got teased so much and when people laugh I would automatically think they're laughing at me. Then, my self esteem hit rock bottom. But now.. I have a very loving boyfriend. He tells me how beautiful I am but I feel as though I don't deserve to be called that at all. On the bright side, we will all be stronger people in the end.

[yowatzcrackinbiatch]

I was in second grade :/ i was like 7 and it was when i started to get kinda chubby.. we were watching a movie in class, and i was wearing a skirt.. sitting down next to a super skinny girl. She looked right at me and was like, "look at those jiggly thighs" :I yeah.. that's how it went.

[pidigrimerde]

when i see a beautiful girl like you.. feeling soo bad about herself... i just feel like i'm shit... you are soo much prettier than i am.. i just can't believe you feel like that..it makes me soo sad

[Twilight0513]

story of my life..

youre one of my role models

[philtre27]

wow u made this video 3yrs ago,but I just have to ask..who told u MY childhood story?lol.This video reminds me so much of myself. Can't believe I made a bridge w/someone through my computer screen:))

[CountVonPappenheim]

I used to be a confident kid in elementary school until 4th grade when I went to K-Mart with my mom and saw a guy get shot in the head less than twenty feet from me. I never though it effected me much but looking back on it that seems to be the point at which I became the socially awkward person I am today.

[marahashley]

My mom triggered it for me, too. When I was 9, my mom told me I needed to watch what I was eating because my thighs were fat. She didn't even remember. I told her about it a few months ago and how it triggered me and she started crying.