When the lights go out (Original Poem)

Wherein you get to see a one time only extended version of my 2012 intro, I talk about something very personal and share the video version of a poem.

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Songs used under CC-License:
Sub-Reality by Doctor Noise: http://www.youtube.com/doctornoise
Chameleon Circuit - Sound of Drums: http://dftba.com/product/xr/Still-Got-Legs-CD (You can order their CD there.)
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When The Lights Go Out:
I'm afraid to close my eyes, because the night is filled with lies. My tears are far too loud, I feel alone in the crowd; I'm out of control, when the lights go out.
I hear whispers in the shadows of my heart, I'm not allowed to scream, to let get go of the dark.

You didn't take me seriously, when I was in need, instead you discussed, what there was to scavenge on a deserted island, mysteriously. And there was me; your supposed friend; waiting for actions, so the suffering would end; not your declared enemy.

I'm afraid to close my eyes, because the night is filled with lies. My tears are far too loud, I feel alone in the crowd; I'm out of control, when the lights go out.
I hear whispers in the shadows of my heart, I'm not allowed to scream, to let go of the dark.

You didn't see the moon reflecting off the river or feel the breeze, which made my whole body shiver at the bridge, on the night I fell too deep; it's a memory I don't wish to keep; it's haunting, taunting, daunting me, but insetad of abiding to the darkness of the sea, a spark of moonlight came over & was guiding me.

At the end of the day, this is still me, alive and breathing, but now I'm embracing the darkness I'm not scared to be; my tears? Still too loud. I'm just no longer afraid of what happens to me, when the lights go out, because the moon now lives inside of me, spreading a light for everyone to see.

Written by Dome Attic (01/08/12)

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[hypedragon]

This is really incredible, Dome. You have something to be very proud of, in the video and in your strength, and something that should be shared :)

[hubertcumberdale2008]

@hypedragon Thank you, Meg. I know how to channel my demons into something creative instead of letting them get to me as they did in the past. HUGS!!!

[JoeSomebody2]

It's quite true: you're a fine editor. Been awhile since I attempted an editing job like this, so I know the work that goes into, so I say bravo for that alone. In regards to working through the rough times, you've shown yourself to be a strong fellow through it all (or at least that which you show). Hold onto that. ;)

[hubertcumberdale2008]

@JoeSomebody2 Thank you ;) I'll keep holding on to that for sure.

[doctornoise]

I quite like the poems rhythm now that I'm hearing it spoken.

[hubertcumberdale2008]

@doctornoise Really?!?! Awesome, thanks a lot Bill, I mean coming from you ;) It's like being told by the Doctor that you can travel with him in his TARDIS ;)

[hubertcumberdale2008]

@bcub I keep swimming and bathing in the moonlight - ok that analogy thing is kind of awkward and perverted but yeah, as I said to you before, I'm trying. Thank you, keep guidng me and I won't go lost like a ship in the stormy sea. Just don't wait too long before you bring me home. 143

[hubertcumberdale2008]

@greatesTXever That's exactly the reaction I was hoping for but I really didn't think it would happen. You're the second person today, telling me their story, which makes me really happy, because it makes me feel less alone. I'm working on the "surrounding myself with positive creative people" part since I've discovered that a lot of my friends aren't real friends or that they can't deal with it, even within my family. Thank you, Andre. HUGS Your comment really means a lot to me.

[hubertcumberdale2008]

@greatesTXever Thank you so much for sharing this.

[hubertcumberdale2008]

@greatesTXever Thank you, I am in a way, because I worked hard on this.