For You.

Today is my and my boyfriend's first anniversary. I wrote this for him some months ago and saved it for this day.

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Beat: Portrait by Bluntmosphere
Lyrics: I want to leave this place but every time I try to go/I feel you grabbing on my waist, hands on my face saying "no"/So I can't again, and the very fact that you exist/Tells me that I never will because now surely I'll be missed

You're a twist, something I created in a wish/But then you came to life and laid a kiss upon my wrist/I'm a fish, struggling to breathe up out the water/A lamb headed to slaughter and resisting's getting harder

Every morning I wake up, go through the motions in a daze/Depression like a drug was made to keep me in this haze/Where crying comes as easily as opening my eyes/And life just seems so pointless, I don't even wanna try

Cuz every time I try it's like I'm guaranteed to fail/Now would I rather die than have to live to tell the tale?/Nobody wants to hear it so I'm better off in silence/Suffering in quiet while I'm stifling a riot

Of thoughts that say I'm worthless, ugly, dumb, and immature/Sad and talentless, a waste of breath and nothing more/I hear a knock and hope that it's the Reaper at the door/I open up, it's you, bringing a new world to explore

Or maybe it's the same but with you it just looks different/Since you've been in my life it's like my whole perception's shifted/I think I'm blind but you give me the sight to see my worth/The other half of my heart I've been seeking out since birth

When in every other presence I feel like an awkward freak/You're the only one who makes me feel there's nothing wrong with me/With you I never have to hide a single tear or scar/I feel your warmth around me even though you may be far

You're fighting the same demons I've been dealing with forever/I believe we both can beat them if we battle them together/You've given me this hope and I'm so grateful that it hurts/For you I'd spill my blood, for you I'd walk this earth

But still sometimes it's like I can feel nothing but the pain/I wanna slit my wrists or maybe jump in front a train/I think of you and know that there's no way that I can do it/To leave you here alone, I just couldn't put you through it

You're a part of me and now for you it's life I choose/And if you weren't around I'd probably end up on the news/By now I must sound crazy but I don't even mind/You saved my life, I owe you, and I do mean every line

This life no longer mine but now it's something we two share/Suddenly it's precious, suddenly I care/Because your love is the thing that made me want to stay alive/When every fiber of my being fucking screamed for suicide.

I love you Jay =*

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[ladyxonjupiter]

awesome!

[Asha3000]

Damn that was Beautiful ! !

[Mbeebeelove]

Aww so cool! Love it! ♥ (^_ ^)