Boys 9-13 used to tease me, beat me up (or try to), & try to molest me when I was 8,9, & 10...

When I was 9, I owned a 5 year old, beautiful, purebred, pekingese named Mandi (whom my mom got for FREE through an ad in the paper). My mom & I (the "Mentally Ill' FKING ONLY ARTISTS in our "so called" family) together wrote THIS SONG I SING HERE about Mandi (who was similar to my pug dog Omar you see here). One day, those MEAN, little boys (who used to chase me home from the bus stop EVERY FKING DAY, until I made it through the front door of the dingy apartment building I lived in with my mom & her abusive, alcoholic boyfriend & was "SAFE") threw little Mandi into a shallow river, but I went in & got her out. Thank "God" Mandi was not hurt!

***I have NOTHING left inside of me anymore. These types of TRAUMATIC "Scenarios" have REPEATED in my life for far, far, far too long... Kids & Adults (in my family & outside of my family) have been EQUALLY abusive & cruel towards me & towards the creatures that I LOVED. No man WHO WOULD ACTUALLY BE GOOD FOR THAT WOMAN wants an Emotional Basket Case for his MATE, & I am JUSTIFIABLY no longer able to TRUST anybody or ANYTHING, anyway... END OF STORY.... END OF LORA?

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@buffy61 Yea, that wasn't too fun for me to go to visit my mom, not be able to even see her because she had SELFISHLY locked herself in her room & refused to even come out to see me (her own daughter), & then to see the HORROR (the emaciated, walking flesh) that my sick mom & INDIFFERENT grandfather had caused my BELOVED CHILDHOOD PET to change into... Mandi (of course) was DYING. She sure as hell wasn't gonna be around much longer when WORMS were literally eating her up alive..

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Poor Mandi... I don't know what I would have done in those childhood years without Maybelline my Cocker Spaniel. These dogs the help me to get on with things when I face trials, just as Omar does for you. I believe in the power of the human spirit (and through my own beliefs of Christ helping bear my load) but I love quotes from the artistic set, and found one just for you and hopefully they will help: Anna Quindlen said "The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being