"I knew I couldnt trust you before you even realized it." she sighed and I looked down again, terrified to look at her, and finally realize the meaning of my way of acting towards her. It was the day after that horrible night , the night where I almost beaten her to death. Fortunately my mind had won my wild side but we couldnt go on like that.
Her words struck me, hurt me, even, but I knew I deserved it
" Why did you trust me, then?" I asked confused
"Because I am a fool, and I wanted to believe in us, as much as you did." she smiled weakly "Please, Troy, look at me. I know that I am in a really bad shape right now" she laughed humorless before walking up to me and sitting down next to me "Dont worry, Im okay."
"You're not okay." I whispered, trying to stop tearing up "And its my fault."
"Troy, please, I know you don't wanna do it. "she cupped my chin and made me look in her chocolate brown eyes
"You do?" I asked stunned "It doesnt matter, I am doing it anyway, Sharpay, and you know you should totally sue me for that. That would be the only way to stop hurting you. I deserve to be in jail." I couldnt keep the tears anymore what was wrong with me? What had happened to make me something I wasnt?
However, I exactly knew what I was..a damn monster and I still didnt know if I could cope with being aware of it.
"Troy we'll find a way, I promise. We can't give up now. We just can't, after spending so much energy into this." she kissed my forehead, and my lips sweetly, before making me lie on her lap.
"What happened to me?" I questioned her while tears started falling from my eyes
"I dont know, Troy, I dont know. she said calmly. Her hands were stroking my hair softly, and sometimes they changed their aim, and made circle with her fingertips on my forehead. I loved her, I loved her with all my life, with everything within me, and not understanding why I was hurting her in the first place was driving me insane. Even knowing that she was always here for me didn't help. I was asking myself why was she trying to help me, why was she coping with all of this, when she could easily walk away
"Sharpay, leave me." I stated
Her hands stopped "No, Troy." she answered back before tracing my lips. She lowered her head and smiled at me
"Sharpay, I'm serious. Leave me, because I dont know if I'm strong enough to do it myself. You deserve better." I argued while staring at her bruised face
"Never, Troy." she kissed me hungrily and I immediately responded. After a while she pulled away "I love you."
"I love you." I answered back
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sorry for not uploading sooner. comment ova 10 for the next
that was unreal i would never forgive a guy after beating me up lol but i suppose thats what makes it soo interesting. it was unreal well done
btw where did you get the pic of zac??? i love it :D
ZashleyLife 1 year ago
@ZashleyLife I totally agree with you. I woul never forgive a guy that did something like that either, but I'm no Sharpay...and I know this doesnt sound right but she has her reasons..
about the pic I dont really remember...where did I get it? I really dont remember, but if you want I could send it to you.
thanks for the lovely comment
xoxo
chanellovesing 1 year ago