FTM-Buffet of Sadness

Discussing my current emotional state and how I cope with it.

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• FTM
• Transman
• transsexual
• Transgender
• Testosterone
• Transition

[FreeingGavyn]

**not that being trans is like being braindamaged. oy vey. think before you hit post gavyn. /slaps forehead

[FreeingGavyn]

@freshleycharles, that is an interesting point on the root of things changing and your emotional roadmap altering. It brings to mind how sometimes when brain tissue is compromised or lost it can sometimes rewire itself and create the same end result but with different pathways. It has been a joy to watch your growth and I too hope deep down inside my little tranny heart that we will meet one day. I totally heart you in return in equal parts. <3

[FreeingGavyn]

Brent, thank you for being appreciative. It is hard to put myself out there like that but its for a good cause! You just plain rock yourself sir. :)

[wyleycoyote21]

We are two of a like in the sense that we don't like to talk about our emotions and how we deal with them.... Right there with you big brother ... Love ya

<3 wyley

[MrFlyboi511]

Thank you Gavin for pouring out your heart and soul in this vlog. Revealing the inner most sacred parts of your self are difficult in and of itself, let alone.. the darkness.. It's very freeing to be able to grab hold of your courage and embrace your tough emotions enough to share with others.. ( total strangers) Thank you from the deepest part of my being... Your humanity shines through for all to see... Blessings and hugs- Pat

[ThatPunkBrent]

excellent video man..exactly what i needed to see today...i appreciate you putting your soul out there on youtube

[ThatPunkBrent]

man i am so glad you posted this..though i am sorry you are going through shit..:( i can relate so much man..i spent ages 12-19 in and out of facilities so i am now almost 30 going on 12 lol i am still trying to adjust to people and understand the world and understand how to appropriately socialize...like you i am also grateful although it was terrible at the time. I really learned a lot about people and i feel i am more open minded and stable because of the skills i learned and people i met

[ateddyont]

I am impressed by your emotional process and honesty! Thank you so much for bringing yourself to this video and letting us see how you are! All too often, YouTube is full of transmen and our amazing physical transition but I'm more interested in how it is to be in the world and how we respond to life with a new roadmap.

As someone who was also institutionalised (*only* for one year though at 19) I am personally thrilled to be able to finally relate to someone who experienced that! THANKS!!

[freshlycharles]

beyond just sad. It was like my emotional center had moved deeper and closer to my gut and I hadn't rewired my methods for getting at them. Granted, I ended up changing my relationship with T (going off and then back on at a very low dose). I try to remember that I have choice in this process. That is, my socialization and preferences do count. I totally heart you Gavyn! You were one of my first friends here!!! I really hope we get to meet someday! xoxo

[freshlycharles]

Thanks for this amazing video (yes it is Friday night and I am at home getting ready for the dreaded NOC shift!). When I experience some of the sadness you speak of, I found it to be challenging because (1) I had way less angst/anxiety so sad emotions felt different and (2) I had a hard time analyzing their root because they seemed sort of rootless and I just rested on this idea that it was some sort of catharsis that would pass (3) I had a hard time deciphering the more finely tuned emotions