I was tested twice on the question pro-life or pro- choice

When I was sixteen years old I was pregnant. I chose to abort the child and I am still drawn to tearful regret of that choice. My mother came with me to the abortion clinic and tried to prepare me for what I might feel both physically and mentally. I wish someone at the time would have told me what the procedure was and what the child would endure. It was not until after the abortion when I was leaving I saw a prenatal diagram of the child's growth inside the womb. I walked up to the picture that defined the stages of three months. My eyes started to well up and I touched the picture and said, "Oh my God it has hands and feet and a cute little butt. Inside I quietly screamed. God what have I done?

Years later I would have a dream that Jesus took me by the hand as we enetered into heaven. I was in awe of the large pillars that were to my right. There was a liquid like substance that draped like curtians and sparkled. I was so intent on the view I did not realize that Jesus was no longer beside me but standing in front of me. Behind Jesus a boy with dark hair and big brown eyes peered from around Jesus garment. Jesus said, "This is your son." The son that I aborted. I will never forget the look on Jesus and his face. THey did not need to say a word. I knew I was forgiven. When telling my mother about the dream she confirmed to me that the child was a boy.

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[jscaforlife]

I pray that God continues to bless you and your beautiful daughter, and I also pray that anyone considering abortion hears your story and chooses life. Thank you for your message.

[elliesmile]

Thank you for your message. I am going to post a video of Nicole ... talking and such. So everyone can see the life that was chosen. She is positively a delight. One of my reasons for being. My oldest daughter is pregnant and praise God she never even considered abortion. Consider us in your prayers as I have added you to mine!

[AglaeaZ]

Wow!!!!!!!!!!! Does this speak volumes! There are really no words to express how I feel right now. Thank you soooooooooo much for sharing such a personal part of your life. May God continue to rains blessings down on you. Give Nicole a big hug:)

[elliesmile]

Thanks for your comments and your encouragement. God is good and faithful!

[818mami]

this really made me cry

i hope my friend realizes one day that what she ended wasnt cells it was a human life =[

[elliesmile]

In time she will. When that time comes she will need a friend to hold her and remind her that this child is in heaven and she will see her again. Blessings

[vrijegeest]

thank you for sharing this story. our God is a merciful and forgiving God. and He loves you. hugs sister! :)

[CredoCatholicJournal]

Thanks for sharing this.

[butterflie2484]

God bless you and your daughter. I am glad I chose life. Once I saw the ultrasound, I couldnt go through an abortion and thankful I had. People dont realize it is a life. I wish they would. Your sister in Christ..

[jloms78]

elliesmile, i was touched by your story, ijust hope that everybody who had a past like yours will come to know Christ's love that breaks the borders of condemnation. Past is past, what is essential is you have learned from your mistakes. Yes, God had forgiven you, and He will look at your heart this present. Enjoy God's victory always!