My Difficult Past

In this video, I tell you about difficult things I have had to live through during my teenage years. This includes my transsexuality (obviously), but also dealing with poverty and living with a schizophrenic parent.

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• past
• difficulties
• hardship
• transsexuality
• transition
• poverty
• mental
• illness
• schizophrenia
• high
• school
• teenage
• years

[baiNEKO]

Hi, What camera did you use for this video ?? Thanks! ;)

[TrannyGirl15]

For this video, just a laptop webcam. For the newer videos, Flip Mino HD.

[fashionmanson]

i'm 23, doing well at uni, gonna begin masters after summer, probably the youngest spinster w two cats i know. i m single because i just cant trust people. i'm the major of social-retard-land , i begin to realise i am wasting my life away, this is not how i wanted things to be! any suggestions?

[TrannyGirl15]

Stop believing in spirits, go out more, work on making friends... Find a purpose for your life, work on achieving that purpose.

If you find this all seems very unobvious, a good therapist may be able to help you get there.

[Loudensll]

Well hey, I dont mean to sound like a jerk but I am real and say what I think without blowin smoke up your ass. If you had a father either he would have influenced you to me a masculine person or if its what is truly in you. Then he would have beat you for your feminine behavior thats the truth take it or leave it. So if your happy like you are don't worry about the father part you might have been better off.

[TrannyGirl15]

It turns out my father also wanted to be a woman.

[hulugal]

my mum was also schizophrenic. i felt so alone for the years i lived in her home. she still doesn't think she is sick. i had to learn what reality was and how people actually live once i went to college. tough life, i know... my peace came from my faith in Jesus. i am glad you're open about living with a mentally ill mum. i hope you find peace, also. take care.

[GEETOME]

wow --you lay bare your soul to us - you are strong person and articulate

[pshakenbake]

@ruithael Actually, not all people living with schiophrenia have formal thought disorder, many people may just experience other symptoms without disordered thought, therefore will be able to define and communicate things very well! You make a fair point about perspective, now let me make my point that terms like 'crazy' and 'schizo' are derogatory and just increase stigma for people with the lived experience of mental illness.

[putzmeister1000]

Your story made me cry. I hope and wish I have friends like you. Maybe when I will emigrate to Canada. In this life...

[mastereyeball]

wonderful commentary chickadee:) i feel like i can relate to you on many things. thank you for being so open:)

[sazji]

So much of our lives pass desiring the approval of others - parents, friends, society. But though it sounds cliche, they can never tell us who we are; that is something we have to find and accept ourselves. There are so many sources of baggage; even if some do accept us it's no help if we are still holding onto the feelings of rejection and not letting our own souls define us first. Keep looking in to that part of you that knows perfectly well who you are, the part that nobody can touch.

[anhelou]

Hi i,m not that much incomputer stuff neither that english is my spoken language. More an more that i'm listening to your commentary, they are so fullof truth. I mean full of you. Your way to be so reel and honnest is realy inspiring.I,m so deceided to be be so poor with all those computer because i would like to have deeper meaningfull chat with you. Anyway continu to be so true you are a life lesson

[photomad97]

I think you are very inspiring. Also my best friend or my role model, bryan hes gay. But i love him to bits!!! And i dont think it should mater to other people what you are i think it matters when you feel how you want to feel! -Mady