another anorexia day

*OLD VIDEO* Before going into recovery.

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• anorexia
• eating
• disorder
• treatment
• mental
• health

[wendolya]

hi, im peruvian, i`m go crazy when i eat more then i thiink is ok. actually, when i have nothing on my stomach i feel happy, well... i have a strong depression. i dont say that, doctors say. but then i feel that i dont wanna be thin, i wanna be younger, i mean like a little girl. invest. .. im 22. but i wanna look like 14. i feel ugly. even know that is stupid. what do u think?

[justagurl23]

@wendolya i think it's common to be afraid to grow up whether it's your physical body or the responsibility of being an adult, especially if you don't have the proper coping skills or support from others to learn how to deal with being an adult. it is overwhelming. you need to start doing things for yourself that will make you feel better about yourself, not worse..including trying to just even enjoy what you do eat. you can't turn back time. that's one thing i've learned. so have to go forward.

[kay2bmkm]

dam man... i wish women knew how beautiful they all truly r... i think girls in mags r fucken fake and even if so, they r ugly fake or real.. no inspiration there..

[justagurl23]

@kay2bmkm it's not really about not feeling pretty. eating disorders are more emotional/psychological than they really are about weight..weight and food just become the obsession and the way to TRY to control the turmoil inside. but of course the media does end up playing a role in what keeps eating disorders going too. not a sole cause of them, but helps keep the need for perfection going..self-hatred, etc.

[PerfectBallerina]

I can totally relate to you. Stay strong on your recovery <3. It's possible.

[josephjcarter]

Honey you ave one thing to remember. YOU ARE PERFECT AS YOU ARE.

A girl as attractive as you should have nothing to worry about. Please be strong for your sake and for everyone in your life who loves you dearly. Trust me...

[Cherry00Me]

you are so beautiful

[justagurl23]

@tusia750 THANK you. this video is four years old....i am not this sick anymore. i've done well for the most part and am at a healthy weight. i'm able to actually enjoy life and food now.

[tusia750]

@Bobsomeable To be honest you cant see her body and Im sorry but I bet it's so thin , I am fat @Bobsomeable but I don't want to be like her because you can tell how sad she is .

[Andie7984]

I was just looking at your current videos and then this one and boy you are such an inspiration. You have changed for the good SO much. I am really proud of you Ashley.

[justagurl23]

@Bobsomeable ha....yeah...like not eating and purging didn't nearly kill me or anything..no, not at all. also, it doesn't matter how thin a person ends up because they can't stop the behaviors that got them to that point. nothing is nice or pretty about eating disorders or suffering like i did then, so..i would gladly have given you that if you wanted it..would have saved me years of hell.

[Bobsomeable]

I wish i was as thin as this. Why am i so fat i ate a whole fucking chocolate bar like 100g and then i purged it up but if i looked this thin i wouldn't have to your so lucky your beautiful