My Fight with Anorexia (week 1)

First off, please don't write any rude or mean comments. That's really disrespectful and it drives me nuts when I see it on other people's videos too.
Second, I know my sound sucks. I'll probably just start doing sound recordings and posting pictures instead of doing videos because I have a microphone on my computer. I also am aware that at several points you can't see what I am trying to show you such as my Pro-Ana braclet and my boyfriend's picture.
Also, I start out by saying this is the 4th time and it was. I recorded it four times, each time thinking I had talked over the 10 minute limit but later found out that I had not and that made me very angry because I said a lot more in the first 2 and had to cut a lot out here.
Anorexia is a disease according to doctors and they probably know more about it than I do, but I see it as a life style choice. I am not making these to inspire people to become anorexic because anorexic is not something people simply become. I am not making these to try to get others to recover. They have the right to decide if and when to recover.
ALSO this was supposed to be uploaded on Thursday but things got busy and so I am just uploading it now.

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[homeschooler101]

i wish i hated food...i hate food for doing wat it does to me..i want to be 110 by aprilish...i gotta lose like 27 pds..!!!

[VioletSkyeMartin]

@homeschooler101 please don't even worry about that at all. That is a very dangerous time frame. If you are doing it to get healthy, there are better ways to do that. Being anorexic is like living in your own personal hell, and recovering from it is no picnic either. Feel free to message me if you have any questions or anything.

[85matt85]

I kinda know how you feel, and i know it sounds stupid but i think I WOULD DIE if the doctor told me to stop exercising.

[VioletSkyeMartin]

@85matt85 It doesn't sound stupid, I felt the same way. It's been so long since I did my old intense routine, though, it's hard to get back into it. I miss it, it's just been so long I got used to it. No, it doesn't sound stupid at all.

[besman12]

annerexia i wonder how that happens i just couldnt ever starve my self i did wrestling and i didnt get addicted to not wanting to eat.

[VioletSkyeMartin]

@besman12 I became anorexic because of self-esteem issues that came from my father. A lot of anorexia comes from mental things and stuff in someone's past that caused them to feel less than they are. I don't know you or what happened in your past, but you must have had a realitively good one to not have fallen into what I did. or at least really strong.

[inolvidable2223]

i wish i hated food i have to lose 100lbs in like 2 months im tierd of people treating me bad because im over weight but its hard for me to not like food i have like an eating anxiety i tend to eat all the time it sucks

[TheLegofan345]

@TheLegofan345 Nvm

[TheLegofan345]

@track1354 Listen I'm about

[TheLegofan345]

Hi big sister it's me your little bro it's 2012 now and a little late. It just saw it ok I knew about how it was bad after all we live in the same house but I didn't know you were gonna die because of how low your heart rate was well your doing fine now bye o and you just got home I heard the door

[thISbombxo]

to the comment down below, anorexics do eat food. even if you eat 500 calories a day its still considered anorexic.

[candyshop1001]

@iluvpets21 only 4pounds and ur scared ur anorexic I've lost 35 pounds I'm not anorexic

[renesmeeinez]

i would cry if i had to stop exersizing

[psychojoker131]

Iv been on and off with trying not to eat. I was brain washed in what I saw and heard. A week or two ago, I stopped. I was at 105lbs. Not anorexic for being 5'3. But everything changes, I felt weak and dizzy. I barely ate. I'm now 108-110. That's with water weight and food. I like 105lbs, but starving wasn't me. I now exercise, and eat. "Be fit and strong, because anorexia causes harm."

[epicchic]

@hash121212 It's not that simple. Annorexics just litterallycan't eat food... it's not that simple..

[track1354]

ok can you answer my question please i am 5'3 and a half i weight 95 pounds maybe less i run cross country and i'm on the track team everyone says i look anorexic i'm 13 and people are starting to make me believe it am i ?