Living with DPD 2 (part1)

2 years after my 1st video on depersonalization disorder.

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People & Blogs

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• Depersonalization
• Disorder
• DP
• DPD
• Feeling
• Unreal

[HeySlowPokes]

15:03

That ain't spiritual that is just residual affects of your parents and injunctions becoming conscious in relation to you so-called bad behaviour.

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Even Winona Ryder get those feelings when she goes shoplifting and even shopping.

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All those thought are normal thoughts, you were lucky to have had so much time off of school for free; without having to be expelled, etc.

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[HeySlowPokes]

It sounds like your story about the planets and later the clouds is about the constellation of your parents' character traits, in your life, at the time.

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It would be good to think about your parents' behaviour then, rather than 'I got a device to play with', what was family life like then?

Including the life of any siblings.

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The clouds you mention, to my mind, represent days of disquieting family life and the blue skies, they, just as a contrast, could represent days of amiable family life.

[YouAreSoRight]

How much was your SAD light? Did you get that, too, on-line? . Those pills you read that it says it is for... but that is only worth the guarantee of the foreign manufacture. . 7:10 I've just heard you; if you were a doctor, in listening to other peoples problems you could experience burn-out. The solution to burnout is quality time spent with peers, fellow doctors. If you ain't a doctor, then it is difficult to tell which 'friend' you ought to listen to and which not. . . Cheers. from, del-boy.

[ameisingset]

In a lot of cases it seems dp comes from elevated cortisol over time, it really makes sense and fits with the symptoms, but then there is people who've thought themselves into having dp, and then it doesn't fit.. Like how can thoughts stick like that, how can a mental state not go away unless it's chemistry or hormones or whatever? Is DP just neurosis and whoever has the greatest stamina gets stuck the longest? Someone please figure this out, how can it turn itself on like that, and stay??

[Aaronthegreatest]

@Expetens I have no idea. maybe you're right...I sort of think that the profundity involved with those kind of thoughts can just make a person feel so anxious when they think about it for a while that they end up depersonalizing. There's gotta be somebody out there who actually knows.

[Expetens]

@Aaronthegreatest we care too much about things we can't control. One of the main problem is thinking about everything, always wondering and "what if...". We're wasting time asking, and probably will never have an answer, we're thinking instead of doing something real. I think that when you stop keeping your mind busy with reality, it destroy the kind of balance you have.

[Aaronthegreatest]

that might have been bugging you back around the time when you first had an attack? you said your life was kinda dull and depressing back then, so maybe there was something stressful going on that you forgot about. Anyway, the thing you said that creeped me out sort of was the thinking about space and planets thing--before I had my first attack, I thought a lot about that too and I kept trying to imagine what came before the universe etc. and I think that in itself made me anxious.

[Aaronthegreatest]

ive been watching a few of your vids recently; what you said in this one really surprised me o.o; I got my DPD after a panic attack that happened when I was 10. For a while, i thought it came sort of out of the blue, but after I learned more about DPD i figured out that i had probably been suffering derealization leading up to the attack and thats what caused it. derealization/depersonalizatio­n are both defense mechanisms triggered by anxiety and stress, so can you think of anything stressful

[azromper]

I've been diagnosed as having DPD. Schizophrenia runs in my family and I come from a highly violent environment. in my 20s I used hallucinagens to pick apart my thought processes and decided to see my "disorder" as a benefit: being rational instead of emotional. I do feel Rage sometimes and I black out and break everything around me. But using Zen Buddhism to keep myself in check I hardly ever snap. thank you for sharing.

[clgj16]

Thank you for this insight weed triggered mine to and it's so scary having this but it's good to know that I'm not alone