" the best horse in the world "

I made this video about 6 months ago when it was coming up to mine and millys' 4th year together. I was going to put it up but felt stupid about having a voice over. Just now i found this in iTunes totally unexpected, and watching it and hearing what i'd said really struck a nerve. I'd do anything to have milly back... she kept me so - sane i guess ?

It sounds so over-dramatic and people on here are always writing big long descriptions about how they wouldnt cope without their horse, and maybe some of those descriptions are true. Maybe we all cope in different ways, and maybe, some of us don't cope at all. I am one of those that just didn't cope i guess.

Shortly after Milly left, i started to self harm and have been ever since. Judge me, unsubscribe, call me weak, hate on me. Whatever. But to be honest, what is that point of using youtube to be something your not ? I know you must all think i'm mad to be sharing this with everyone on here. But it seemed like a good place to admit it, or start learning how to.Were all just people. Some of us have 50 subscribers, some of you have 4000, but deep down, we are all the same. We all wake up, go to school. We all have shit days, we all have good days. We have horses and we all want to succeed. Self harming is my way of dealing with things. Milly was my rock. I knew that when i was having a shit day, i could go to her, my refuge. She would made me laugh, and even when it was time to go, and as soon as i said my goodbye to her, everything would go back to being shit again, i knew that while i was just with her, everything was okay, i could put my worries to the back of my mind and forget the rest of the world.

Milly was everything to me. Don't take your horses for granted. You'll regret it. ♥

Category:

Pets & Animals

Tags:

• xXxShebaMillyxXx
• horse
• riding
• jumping

[alcid100]

aww! amazing little pony, and rider! 

[XxXShebaMillyXxX]

@alcid100 thanks so much <3!

[xWiskex]

beautyfull =)

[XxXShebaMillyXxX]

@xWiskex thank you :)

[PNYJUMPERproductions]

may i ask where you got the audio to the sound in the background? xxx :)

[XxXShebaMillyXxX]

@PNYJUMPERproductions I think it's from a film called The Island :) xx

[momsdaword11]

ive just seen this and subbed, youre an amazing rider and i really hope you dont sh anymore! i sh myself and its so hard to stop, i really hate it when others do too :( stay strong ♥

[OhMyPirate]

what song was that?

[XxXShebaMillyXxX]

@j0d1ec thank you Jodie a comment like that from such a talanted person like you means the world xxx

[j0d1ec]

Grace, it's not often (if ever) that the video description has an even greater effect on me than the video itself. This video is 24 carat gold, but the description is 100% pure platinum! Your words make me want to be a more honest person.

♫♪ Jodie ♪♫