SORRY FOR THE LOW VOLUME
My contribution to the it gets better project :)
FOR THOSE WHO CAN'T HEAR IT
My name is Haley. I'm a junior in high school and i'm 16.
I'm an out and proud lesbian.
I first started liking girls when I was 13. At first I was in denial and I just couldn't except it I'm like there's no way I can be gay... no way! And eventually I just came to terms with it.
I started telling my friends, at least my closest ones about a month after. And from there I slowly started to open up a little more and more to the people I knew.
By sophomore year I was an open and out lesbian to almost everyone.
My mom who's a Christian, and don't say anything bad about Christians I mean I'm Christian. There's really nothing bad about them except some judge where there others, the good ones, believe that god loves everyone. Which he does. Even you!
But she was very about... morals, and that's what made it hard for me to come out to her. And also I was boyish from the start so she kind of suspected it and when I told her she wasn't necessarily excited but she wasn't surprised.
As I've gone through school these past two years totally out and proud I wear shirts that say "all the cool girls are lesbian" and I decorate my locker.
The worst comment I've gotten is someone whispering dyke behind me or a few years ago a couple team mates would talk crap, but they've all lightened up.
I've been very, very fortunate that it hasn't been any more than that.
My friend on the other hand, she had a relationship with a girl once in school and they were open about it. And every day in the hall people would always pick on her and her girlfriend they would make remarks and I would hear my friends and my team mates talking crap about her and it's... it's not right.
My school isn't as bad as others. They don't physically bully us on occasion they'll say something to us but it doesn't get any worse than that.
pause. stall. think of what to say.
My contribution to this project isn't necessarily saying that it gets better from experience. I mean my life has gotten progressively better since coming out, but that doesn't always work for people. Sometimes I guess it is better to stay in the closet just because of the people who are so against it but at the same time it's even worse because the worst, absolute worst feeling in the world is knowing that you can't be who you are in certain places because of how certain people will treat you. I've been through that I've had to lie in front of some people just to please them.
But you shouldn't do that. Because who cares what they think, you know? I mean be who you wanna be. I've become so much happier since I've been out. And the people who talk crap about me, it doesn't even bother me anymore. If they can't accept you for who you are, then they don't deserve to be apart of your life.
And the best part about this project I think, is that it brings all of us together as a whole. It shows the true, the amazing people who help stand up for this. The people who care, that want to show that you aren't alone. And that's what a love about this and this is my contribution is that you aren't alone and that being gay is okay!
No one should ever tell you otherwise.
Because people are cruel, but those few people out there who shine, that you can trust and you love and who love you back just as much- there's the ones that make life worth living.
They're the ones that when you wake up in the day and you wonder what you're doing here, they're the ones that make you realize yeah! that's why I'm here! Cause they care! I do matter to someone!
Every single person in this world is beautiful in their own way. And everyone has someone who they love. Everyone deserves to be happy and to be who they are no matter what.
And I know I have a ways to go, but I'm going to be one of those who fight. Because I know for a fact that it gets better. And I'm going to make it get better for other people too.
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aww look at my sexy ass bvbb :) well said. I love you. you are my bestest friend everrr <3 who said dyke behind you?!?! ill kick some ass(: i care about you and love you dearly haley :) ive always accepted you and always will have your back. because you are practically my sister so yeah :)
volleyhorseluver22 1 year ago
@volleyhorseluver22 awwe thanks bvbb :) Love you too!!!<3
Akxsad 1 year ago