My Kundalini Experience: Part 1 of 3 / Bipolar Disorder Spiritual

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Sometimes a kundalini experience can be mistaken for bipolar disorder or other mental disorders.
Here is an account of my experience from December, 2008.

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• kundalini
• bipolar disorder
• spirituality
• psychology
• hinduism
• buddhism
• vispassana
• meditation

[ultimategamer78]

would you attribute the loss of your inner monologue as a form of "ego kill"? Did it come back? if you achieved ego-kill during your kundalini experience, did you ever regain some of your old senses of "self"?

[bipolarorwakingup]

@ultimategamer78 I think meditation like this pulls you back from an ego orientation. I've had ego death experiences before and they actually feel like you are dying or that your life, as you thought it would be is over and there is no hope. Once you accept that very painful truth, a 'layer' of ego is killed, as you say, and you open up to a wider reality, wider possibilities and a higher energy level. But I think there will always be levels of ego to work through (I think).

[ultimategamer78]

@bipolarorwakingup ah, i guess what i was trying to ask was whether or not your kundalini experience permanently killed your ego.. The reason I ask is because my experience seems to mimic the one you went through (symptom-wise), my inner voice left 3 months ago, along with a large chunk of my consciousness /personality. I'm starting to worry neither of those things will return to how they were before all of this. If you could shed some light on this, it would serve as great aid.. Thanks,

- Marv

[bipolarorwakingup]

@ultimategamer78 I suggest you watch all of my videos on consciousness, starting with video #9. They explain more than I can here. No, my ego was not permanently killed, and chances are neither is yours. You are just getting comfortable with the new psychic space you live in. You will never return to the way you were, but you have a great chance to move forward to a new you. The videos explain why.

[Squeegee33]

This Kundalini experience sounds very much like the beginning of a manic episode, the way the birds just chirp and the feeling of the wind and all that, the heightened senses and feeling of love for everything etc.

I wouldn't be surprised if only people like us (people with bipolar) can achieve this kundalini experience.

since bipolar is only recognized in the western culture as a mental illness, these people who experiences kundalini could very well be bipolar and not know it,.

cool stuff.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@Squeegee33 It was very similar to my spiritual ´psychosis´of 13 years ago. I think that is this kundalini experience had happened to me 10 years ago, it probably would have lead to a psychosis. However, at this point in my development, my mind was better prepared, and I knew what was happening. It felt much more physical that mental. The other episode was much more mental in orientation.

[xTommyGirlx]

it happens to me all the time.. Usually I will hear a word or learn some information, then soon following that gain of knowledge I will be required to put it to use. It's come to the point where I can recognize what information I learn is going to be randomly recalled later, because it has a different feel or something. Nothing happens to me without purpose oo.. know what I mean?

[AndeKatWhaaat]

This happened to me 6 months ago when my doggie passed away and a few other things. I'm still dealing with it today. Sometimes I'm afraid, just being outside or talking to someone.

[Jonzen77]

Well congratz what you described in the video is like THE recepy for activating kundalini. Any meditation over 1 hour repeated espessially repeated over several days. It all depends on how deep you get , one ussually hears the OOHM sound from the planet/universe right before it happens. Anyway your lucky as you dont seem to have any emotional/ego blocks , or you would feel kundalini pains. It will be a long time before you can meditate again without making it a kundalini meditation.

[svariar]

hi sean.....i recommend that you try this practice.....agnihotra....just youtube it.....i would recommend that you experiment with this practice and strictly follow it according to the instructions.....u need to have the exact materials for this and a timetable of the exact time of sunrise and sunset.

[jmecrg]

@bipolarorwakingup yep ur rite ....or atleast i feel the same