Nick tossed and turned all night. He couldn't stop thinking about the accident, about how scared Miley had looked, about how scared he had felt.
"You'll be the princess," Nick sang, pointing to Miley, "I'll be the prince and its a love story. Baby, just say yes."
Miley's eyes got wide. "NICK, LOOK OUT!"
Nick quickly stepped on the breaks but it was too late. Everything went black. All you could hear was the sound of metal hitting metal...
Nick woke up screaming. He jumped and buried his head in his hands when Kevin hurried into his brother's room.
"Nick!"
Nick squeezed his eyes shut. Joe.
Kevin hurried over to his brother's side. "Nicholas?"
Oh. Not Joe. That's right. It would never be Joe. Not ever again.
Kevin tried pulling Nick to him, but Nick pushed him away. "Nick--?"
"Go away," Nick cried. "Please. Just...leave me alone." He was crying so much, he was beginning to shake.
"I can't do that, Nick."
"Why not?" His voice cracked as he talked. "You walked away from me in the hospital. Why can't you walk away from me now?"
"Because you're hurting—" Kevin began.
Nick stared hard at Kevin. "I was hurting that day in the hospital, too, Kevin!" Nick pushed Kevin away once more. "I was hurting, and you walked out on me. I know I screwed up, Kevin, and I'm so sorry for what I did. But why would you leave me, when I needed you the MOST?"
"I was just so upset, Nick—"
"And I wasn't?" Nick began to sob. "Joe's death is my fault. MY fault, Kevin. I'm the reason he's dead. You have NO idea how much I hate myself for what happened. You have NO idea how much I want to just...end this pain."
Kevins eyes got wide. "Nick, you can't mean—"
Nick cut him off. "It's too painful, Kevin," he said. "I just want the pain to end."
"Oh, Nick." This time Nick didn't pull away from Kevin. Instead, he welcomed Kevin's warm embrace.
"I don't want to have these thoughts, Kevin, I really don't. But I can't live with everyone—all of my friends—hating me."
Kevin kissed the top of Nicks head. "They don't hate you, Nicholas."
"They should." Nick pulled away from Kevin and looked him in the eyes. "I hate me. You hate me."
"Hey!" Kevin protested, scaring Nick. "I do NOT hate you, Nick. I could never hate you."
"I killed Joe," Nick reminded him. "You have every right to hate me."
"I know I should hate you for what you did," Kevin said, "but I can't. Because you're my brother and I love you. And I'm sure if you had this talk with Demi and Danni, they'd tell you the same thing."
Nick shook his head. "I can't face them, Kevin. I killed the love of Demi's life. I'm the reason Danielle almost lost her ability to walk. I can't face them, Kevin."
"You have to," he told his brother, "if you ever want to let go of this guilt you're feeling."
Nick sighed. "Kevin, no amount of talking is going to get rid of this guilt I feel. It's going to be there forever, haunting me, reminding me of the pain I caused so many good people." Nick had begun to cry again. "It's never going to go away."
20 comments? This might only be another couple of chapters left. I didn't want Nick to go through, like, five more chapters without talking about Joe. "ONS" will be on hiatus until after I finish this movie.
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omgg! That is soooo sad! Dang, nick is sooo emotionaly pained right now!
mrsdavidarchuleta09 2 years ago
Wow that almost made me cry! LOVE IT!
sofbalcrazy05 2 years ago
poor nick
awesomee
next pleasee
nick dont think about kill yourself
smiley0smiley03 2 years ago
Thank you so much for actually letting us see how Nick is feeling. I was getting kind of annoyed at the 'my fault' over and over thing. But wow, when you write emotion, you write it. It was very good.
Can't wait until Nick faces Demi and Danielle. I wonder how they're taking everything?
sj23564 2 years ago
aw nick<3 i wanna hug him hha this was amazing<3 AND YEA PPL U BETTER FOLLOW HEATHER SHES AWESOME:)
LoveToLaughx0x3 2 years ago
ughh i feel horrible for nick. he should realize that even though he majorly screwed up, people still love and care about him.
alikatie123 2 years ago
poor nick
amazing!
MariaGaleaxo 2 years ago
omg i feel soo bad for nick.. and gosh i cant wait for the next one you are such a good writer <3
crazygurl5455 2 years ago
Amazinggg. :B
Brittneydalton5 2 years ago
poor nick
loved it
can't wait for the next one
334lover16 2 years ago