It's Not Enough To Say I'm Sorry // Goodbye Tammy ❤

** I DONT OWN THE MUSIC IN THIS VIDEO*
**please read**

Yesterday, tammy went to her new home, shes gone to a lovely hacking home, which she will love. I know some of you may be thinking that it's a complete waste of an amazing po', but she never has and never will enjoy schooling or jumping, its so much effort to get her to do it, its not fair. It's taken 3 years of hard work, all my jumping confidence and balance, a thousand and one rider errors and bad habits I've picked up along the way, but finally she started improving. Tammy came to us as a very green 5 year old having done nothing. And I was a complete novice moving up from a riding school. This horse has taught me how to love, how to be the dedicated and confident person I am today. And I can't thank her enough. I would change the last 3 years for anything. This was the hardest decision I've ever had to make, and tbh I cant believe it even happened. As a family we have been putting it off for so long, just hoping she would change and be the pony we wanted, but she never will. It's not fair and it just wasn't fun anymore.

The lyrics to this song are so relevant, everyone of them means the world to my situation, listen carefully and you will understand how I feel right now :/ I cant actually believe she has gone, it hasn't really sank in yet, but writing this is making me cry :'( im fine as long as I don't think about it for to long. This video does not do our journey justice, it does not show what this pony meant to me, how much I loved her, and how much I miss her.

She was my first horse, she taught me everything. I trusted her with my life and she tried her best. And how ever much I tell my self it was the right thing to do, I still cant stop myself thinking that I gave up on her, that I let her slip by, that I didn't just carry on and get a grip. But I know deep down it's the right thing to do, neither off us where happy anymore, I need a new challenge and she needs to teach someone what she taught me. I cant but into word what she means to me and how many tears I have cried over her. We've had so many bad times I cant keep track, but until now, I have always pushed through, always carried on, never gave up. But theres only so far I can go.

So many memories, our first show, our first 1st, moving to stennetts and starting dressage, finally getting an outline, getting 67% in dressage, winning pairs at topthorn, XC schooling with phil, jumping 1m. and so so so many more. Shes took me places I never dreamed to go, ok we didn't win every show or score 8 in dressage, but we done it! Together. Shes given me the knowledge and experience to put onto a new project. Without her I would be nothing.

And so this is goodbye, her new owners have said we can go visit her whenever we want. Which is so lovely. But that doesn't stop the heartache, the numb, the pain. I love you more than anything tammy, I will never forget you. never. Thank you hun, you were the best 1st pony anyone could ever ask for.

I would like to thank all my amazing friends, my wifey, Lauren (strawberical pony) -- thank you for putting my clips in slow mo hun. Phil (philburgess535), kate (katelovesjumping,) and alice (xaliceandbinniex) you guys have been amazing, thank you, I love you and also to everyone down my yard, you have all been so helpful and understanding, I don't know what I would do without you guys.

thank you for reading, will try and reply to comments, just maybe not straight away.

chloe xx

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[HOBBYNOBBBY14]

is she wasnt right for you then you made the choice you did to send her away. however, once you have a horse..they become family. i dont know how ANYONE can sell their family..i certainly couldnt. my horse is 32, he can jump huge but i dont care. i would never ever sell him. his quirkiness is the spark i love. he makes me laugh when no one else can. horses cant just be thrown away. the horse in this video and jumping potential.

[TammyRocks4eva]

@HOBBYNOBBBY14 yes they are family, but they are also a hobbie, a livelyhood and a pet. It certainly was NOT fair to keep her and force her into doing things she clearly didnt want to do.... it would be unnecasary to keep her out pure selfishness that i loved her when she is much happier in a different home. Videos dont tell the full story, taking 20 mins to get round a small course of jumps is not potential.. It wasnt fair on her or me. I stand by my decision to this day and dont regret.

[Michellediva48]

I'd never give my horse up. Ever. 

[TammyRocks4eva]

@Michellediva48 i once thought that too, but its not giving up its moving on. theres a significant difference.

[kinleyriceUK]

i find the picture at 4:16 so adorable! you look so sweet together, i know how you feel but this video made me cry </3 you have such a bond that it will never be broken!

[TammyRocks4eva]

@kinleyriceUK thanks :) xx

[cowgirloooo]

Yea I hear ya on that I got my horse gin gin wen she waz 1 1/2 I broke and trained her by myself wen I waz 12 me and her hadst been through hell but all be damn if I'm guna sell her she s my hole world

[Horserider14ify]

2:16 is so cute!

[angharadconcannon]

thats wright u dont learn by carryinng on we all hav 2 make changes so u did the wright thing

[TheSweetstel]

@Michellediva48

i had to give away my horse he was my best freind but if something like that would happen to you you wouldnt say nothing but in life you just have to learn to move on !

[SuperShara1234]

whats the song called

[9andrea10]

@9andrea10 btw dry is supposed to be cry

[9andrea10]

WHY WOULD ANYBODY DISLIKE THIS VIDEO!?!?!?

It made me dry because i rlly rlly understand her loss. it happened to me when i was only 5 around my birthday my grandmother died and I've been devastated ever since :'( i hope u never ever forget ur horse

[Warriorcatsfan227]

This made me cry. I ride at Stonyhill in North port but i don't have my own horse. I know when i grow up and learn more about horses and raise the money for it, I will have my own horse and i hope we have a bond as strong as yours. Im very sorry about this, and I hope you visit her a lot. It will make her happy :)