'Detox or Die' - BBC 2004 (clip 2: I get the fear)

Short sequence from my BBC broadcast documentary Detox or Die. This was for BBC's "ONE Life" strand. A documentary biopic of my junk addiction that culminates in my attempt to detox with ibogaine. This African visionary drug has, however, been linked to several fatalities and has some rather unpleasant side effects. Heavy stuff but ultimately redeeming.

Broadcast: BBC1 June 2004

Category:

Education

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• Junkie
• junk
• drug
• methadone
• heroin
• addict
• addiction
• ibogaine
• documentary
• Glasgow
• BBC
• hallucination
• death
• visionary
• trip

[Oakleaf700]

Methadone withdrawals start for me with weakness and then, later, huge gusts of fear, great waves of it, and it is really, really awful, combined with dirty nausea and the runs.. everything is just too much..it is like all one's emotions blare at you, and the weeping [ i am female] is horrid- but i only have myself to blame. I took drugs as a teen to be ''cool'' and then found I really liked the soothing effects. what a fool I was/am!

[davidgrahamscott]

@Oakleaf700 You are NOT a fool....you merely look for a way to ease yourself through life..it isn't always an easy ride you kno

[medini2]

my understanding methadone is much worse than herion to get off of. i have heard that methadone actually goes into your bones...

[davidgrahamscott]

@medini2 Yes it is though I think it's a biut of a myth that it gets into your bones..it just feels like that! It is stored in body fat for quite some time however so hence the long withdrawal.

[spikestrip08]

romeozerocharlie, assholes like you on youtube you deliberately start shit with people make me laugh. you probly have no friends therefore you sit on the internet and talk shit to build what little self esteem you have

[sl9sl9]

Wow, an internet tough guy! I want to be just like you!

[Oakleaf700]

@davidgrahamscott Yes, like many i thought it was ''cool'', but then my own son, now 28yrs old had a hard life, as a child whose parents divorced, my drug use &c, yet he [thank God] has not taken to drugs, and doesn't find them fascinating or cool, but instead is ''addicted'' to Downhill Mountain biking!- He broke his leg a couple of weeks ago, and despite being in an agony of pain, was not given any opiate painkillers, as consultant said they have addictive properties. Maybe just as well?

[MAKER6450]

dave...this looks bad...i hate bad trips but i guess its better than being dope sick for weeks.

[medini2]

@aviam1 good question. used to think it was poppy (cia) bush, and that he somehow was responsible for grooming hilliary clinton, and obama.. Now, i also think it has something to do w/ the existence of a world wide network of pedophiles who have squirmed their way deep into the governments &militaries of the world who target innocent kids & put them to work selling for them.

[xyzllii]

i found that harrowing...poor you....brave you....

[oojamaflipper]

woah.. heavy