Jonas Sister Sequel- Chapter 29: Struggle

Chapter 29
Struggle

(Katie's point of view)

I'm sitting on my white bed. In my white room. Wearing my white dress. I feel like I'm in prison. I feel like I was abandoned. Like if there was only me left in this world. I am lost, I have lost.

A wave of despair starts to invade me. I want to drown myself. Not literally, but forget all the pain. That persistent pain that won't leave. I get up, and by reflex reach into my bag. I stop myself, understanding what I was looking for in horror. Alcohol. I need it. It's the only way. What was I thinking? Oh yeah, I was thinking that I was strong enough to do this. That it would be easy. Guess what. It's not.

I've been here for two months. No visits, no calls. Nothing. And I've never been so tortured. My body's aching. It's demanding that comfort alcohol used to provide. I barely eat. Can't hold anything in. I look at myself in the huge mirror thats in my room. I scare myself. I'm like a dead version of what I used to be. Pale as snow, hair messy, purple rings under my eyes.

They had to tie me up yesterday. I was screaming, I was battling. I wanted to get out of here so bad. They had to sedate me. I feel like I'm going insane. I stare at the wall for several hours straight, I draw and write everywhere. That's a typical day for me. All over the floor are papers. I kneel down and pick some up.

SAVE ME, PLEASE.
PEOPLE ALWAYS LEAVE.
I MISS YOU.
HURT.
CRY.
SCREAM.
NO ONE CAN HEAR YOU.
ALONE.
WHY?
I HATE YOU.
I LOVE YOU.
COME BACK TO ME.

I let out a shriek of anger. I throw all the papers on the ground. I let myself fall on my back. I swallow back the tears. They wont get me this time.

Someone knocks on my door. I don't even take the time to pick up, or even get up. I know what she wants.

- Katie? Sweetie, it's time for the group reunion, Janice says threw the door.
- I'm coming...I say in a whisper.

Every single day. I go. I sit on my chair. Listen to everyone's sobs and stories. When it's my turn, I don't say anything. They don't know me! Why would I talk to them? My past, me secrets, my life it was the only thing I had left. I was hanging on to it. I wouldn't let it go, to just spit it out to a bunch of deranged strangers.

I walk slowly in the hallway. I reach room 678. I open the door and go sit down in my seat. Everyone's in a circle. I take a big breath. I run my fingers threw my hair as someone starts to talk.

- I'm Jill, I'm 46 and I...

My mind drifts away. I have flash backs of what life used to be. It's crazy how far away the days where I was dancing on the sandy beaches, laughing while tossing Joe in the water. Before being picked up by Nick. Looking at Mom and Dad walking hand in hand pass us. Kevin trying to get Frankie to let go of his Ipod and come swimming with us. Nick finally throwing me in the water, I'm getting out and see on the edge of the water, Damien's glowing smile. Running up to him and jumping in his arms. Him not minding getting all wet. Picking me up and making me twirl. Kissing him passionately. Not minding the disgusted sound made by Frankie, or the giggles of Joe. Kevin telling them to shut up and Nick pushing Joe in the water. Me turning around and capturing the picture of this scene in my mind.

Then the sound of a door slamming brings me back to where I really am. Where there's nothing but darkness. All good thoughts leave me, and I feel like killing the person that interrupted my vision.

I turn around and my heart skips a beat. Emotions flow to me as two persons come up to us. Every once of anger in me leaves for a second. As I can hardly breathe, the nurse speaks pointing to the man.

- Hello everyone, we have a new patient. His name is Marco.

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[emma2006]

MARCO???? WHOS MARCO??

[gserevitch]

You have to read the originla series, then you'll know.

[partypeepexocool123]

huhh....???

marcos

in rehab!

i don't even know who marco

is!

[gserevitch]

Not to be rude, but....

I told you 03670456 times who he was. You have to read the original series.

[partypeepexocool123]

i know! but,

whats his personality?

and i don't really

like the other series

because everyones so

young!

[gserevitch]

Well, he truly cared about Katie. He looked pass all the rumors and everything. He understood her, they could talk for hours. he was there when no one else was.

All that shows how he was.

[okeydokey22]

WOW was wondering when he was gonna turn up lol :) xx em

[TheTwilightTwins232]

OMJ. MARCO!!! Your back!!!!!! :O Wait,you are in rehab. What?

Yajaira

[iluvkevjonas09]

omigosh marcos back wow for awhile there i forgot all about him :|

[MegJonasCullen]

oh no.

[Shy12JonasBrothers]

omg!!!!!!!!

[doggurl013]

wooooohhh!!! Marco is BACK!!!

[LittleMissGggls500]

HOLY FUCK

[shaunamarie07]

omg MARCO!!!!

when i was reading this chapter i was thinking

*i wonder if marco is ever coming back* and at the very end he's BACK!!! i was speechless !!!!