VENT | You don't care a bit.

"Hm, whatcha say? That you only meant well? Well, of course you did. Mm, that it's all for the best? Of course it is. Mm, that it's just what we need? You decided this."

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( She's so selfish. Appreciate the little things. Don't be so fake. Try and live for yourself. Don't ache for others compliments. Their approval. Their love. Live. For. Yourself. And don't fucking say you aren't doing it for attention. Everyone knows you are. I know the real you. The side of you that shines when nobody else is around. But now, even I don't know who you are. But I'll bite my tongue. Because it's what I always do. I have no right to tell you how to live. I just want you to wake up before you're yanked awake. )

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And a little side note, if you have read this far. If you ever feel like you're being forced to vid, like your motivation stops, but you /have/ to finish a video, just stop. You're burning out yourself. Stop cramming yourself with collabs, or meps, or group shit. No one controls what you do or how you feel. Vid at your own pace. Don't like the vid anymore, stop. Start something new. Take a little break. It breaks my heart to see talented vidders, or vidders just starting off, to stop making videos because they feel forced. Or lost inspiration. Or feel like they aren't good enough. Or they don't have many subscribers so they give up on themselves. There is no need to mass produce videos. Have passion in what you do, and savor every moment your doing it. Because motivation will go away when you begin to feel like your videos become your job. It's not a job. It's a hobby. A /fun/ little hobby you started one day. As time goes on, don't forget to have fun.

Also, for those who think they have to vid for their subscribers, you don't. I make videos when I please. My subscribers are just a beautiful gift given as an award for the passion I have in my videos, and they motivate me to keep on creating. But never force me into creating. Of course, there is always a side of you that wants to make something your subs will love, and make something that will gain you more subs, but it's just the way things are.

AND WOW. I apologize if this makes absolutely no sense at all. I'm totally throwing out all my feelings. Just because I feel like it. And I've been a little frustrated lately. Blame the woman in me...

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• kristynvb95

[Narasha]

<3

[kristynvb95]

@Narasha (:

[MoogleCrunch]

I saw this this morning, but my mom woke up and told me to get my butt to bed before I could finish watching/reading :/ So yeah. This is beautiful. Completely emotion-filled, and I'm glad that you got this off your chest, because it's not good to bottle things up inside. But just know that I love you and that I'm here for you if you ever wanna rant to someone. I may not know what to say (because I'm really bad with words when it comes to social interactions) all the time, but I will listen. <3

[kristynvb95]

@MoogleCrunch <3

[DivinityCreations]

Whoa. o_o This whole video.. I could tell you were pissed. I'm not exactly sure what's going on but if you ever need to talk, Kristyn, you know I'm here. I'll be willing to hear you out. I'm sorry you feel like this. :c But, you need some rain to see the sun rise, right? And, I hope this helped you get all those emotions off your chest, because it's gonna be a new year soon. New friends, new chances.. new everything. And, thank you for making me realize I don't need to force myself to edit. ilu.

[kristynvb95]

@DivinityCreations <3

[Rachelplum]

The video itself was gorgeous enough, but your message in the info box was really nice to read. It's good advice :) The pairings really vid the music, and your editing style is always wonderful :) Hope you are okay!

[OnlyDoylie]

Art has a power to express. Sometimes to express what we don't really know what to say. And Editing is an artform just like anything else.

Thanks for sharing and if you need an ear or just a good laugh... I'm usually around. :)

[LollipopBiiatch]

awesome video *-*

[MrsCookieleCake]

@kristynvb95 Oh, you're right. Thank you for the answer :)

[xPhoenixDown92]

@kristynvb95 Aww, alright honey, don't worry. <3

What can I say? :( Don't take it bad! I know, it's hard... but well... I guess this is life ._.

If you need to talk, I'm here dear <3 I love you :)

[kristynvb95]

@MrsCookieleCake This is actually the original song. The main part of the song that's in my video is actually taken and used in other songs. The song is Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap. c:

[kristynvb95]

@xPhoenixDown92 No no no! I'm not talking about people who dedicate themselves to one group, or who only do meps and collabs every once in a while. It's when you try and join tons of groups. And try to do tons of meps and collabs.