So Close Yet So Far (Chapter 26)

Guys we were soooo close to 10 comments. but oh well. i'm watching the last TRL and it's actually really sad. it's been around since i was like 7 so it's just weird that it's going away. I kinda just realized I should have gone to time square but oh well. at least i've done it once and i got called up too so at least i didn't never do it. they were showing jonas brothers fans in times square but they didn't show me when i was on it :( oh well, i guess i didn't cry so i wasn't as funny lol, there was a great shot of me trying to convince my friends they picked us. there's still hope they'll show me, but at least i was on it the day of lol. oh and i guess miley's not actually dead cause she's kinda on the show lol. Okay, enough about my sad life and to the story.
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"Oh," he said sadly.
"My dad thinks I'm just gonna get in all kinds of trouble and get you in trouble and cause your parents trouble, and he thinks i'm being rewarded for behaving badly or something. and...and I think he's afraid you're gonna hurt me again and this'll start all over again."
"I promise I won't do that."
"I know that. My dad doesn't."
"Well, what can I do to convince him?"
"Nothing, my dad hates me. He's never gonna let me do anything that'll make me happy."
"I'm sure he doesn't hate you."
"Now you sound like my therapist."
"Therapist?"
"Yeah, I was sent to her after..." whoops now I had to tell him.
"After what?"
"After I was diagnosed..."
"Diagnosed?"
"Yeah, you know when your mom was giving me meds and you asked if i was sick and I said I was fine? Well, I lied. Remember how I used to twitch and space a lot when we were younger?"
"Yeah..."
"Well, about a year after you left, I had a grand mal seizure. After I went through tests they decided those little twitches and spaces were myoclonic and absence seizures. So they diagnosed me with Juvenile myoclonic epilepsy."
"Oh Riley, I'm so sorry."
"Thanks."
"So that must be what our moms were talking about."
"What?"
"When you came for school for the first day, your mom was talking to my mom about something. That's why I followed you that day, cause I didn't know what was wrong and I was worried about you."
"About that day, I'm really sorry. It went farther than I wanted but we didn't...you know."
"I know, let's just forget about all that okay?" he said, hugging me and letting me lean back on him.
"Thanks."
"I do need to talk to you about something..."
"What is it?"
"Did...um did you try to kill yourself?"
"What?"
"Your mom said you..."
I started crying again. "I had a strobe light under my bed. I knew that and hyperventilation could cause seizures, so when i felt a seizure coming on I thought if i caused it to be bad enough, i wouldn't wake up."
"Rye, why would you do that?"
"I was just so sad all the time. I was someone I didn't wanna be. My dad hated me. Blake hated me. Rebecca barely spoke to me. I was dating someone I didn't like that much. I just wanted it all to end. I'm sorry."
"Shh, it's okay," he said, wrapping his arms tightly around me. "But I'm here now, and I'm gonna take care of you."
"But you're going away," I whined, still bawling my eyes out.
"I'm not going anything without you."
"But the tour..."
"I don't care about the tour."
"Joe..."
"No, if your parents won't let you come, I'm not going."
"Don't be ridiculous. This is your big chance. Besides your brothers, your fans, Disney, Miley, they're all depending on you. I won't let you give up everything you've worked for just for me."
"but..."
"No, no buts."
"Fine, but promise me something."
"What?"
"Promise me that you'll never try to kill yourself again."
"Joe..."
"Promise me or I'm not going."
"Okay, let's make a deal. If you promise to call and not break that promise again. I'll promise I won't do it again."
"I promise."
"Then I promise too."
He turned me around so I was facing him. He leaned in and kissed me. I ran my fingers through his hair, which was still damp. Then my phone rang. "Don't answer it," he whispered right next to my face before kissing me again.
"Just hold on a second," I said and took out my phone. Jessie. Oh no.
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What's gonna happen? What's Jessie gonna have to say about the whole Casper thing? Will Joe really keep his promise? 10 comments...PLEASE?? we were so close last time.
So I know a lot of you said that Bluer Skies was your favorite and didn't want me to stop, but between some people telling me it was hard to follow both and just not as many comments, I think that i may take a break from it. But it's not over forever, obviously, so don't unsubscribe or something because it'll be back probably as early as Christmas break. and i hope that you guys can enjoy this one. I know it's sort of slow right now, but it won't stay that way. so let me know what you think and if you have any suggestions that will make it better let me know and i'll try to make it work. thanks!

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[feugoeagle533]

nice i wanna read more lol and electrodes?!!??!!?? yelling at peoples if they move their legs?!?! man i dont wanna have that

[NewL30]

the electrodes don't hurt. they're just wires attached to your head. the moving the legs thing is i don't know i think if you cross your legs you're not letting your body do what it naturally would you know? so it may affect if you seize or not. i could be wrong but that's the only way i could make sense of it. the only part that i hated was the hyperventilating. that sucked

[Gretchenfan76]

oh ok

[NewL30]

they didn't really say. they just said it wasn't anything they knew about. they said it's probably muscle contractions or something. i don't know. they just said the EEG didn't show anything.

[Gretchenfan76]

Lol I've had 8 EEG's in the last 6 months they suck so much.. th elongest was a 2 week long one.. SO hard to get thatglue out.. What did they say yor twitching was?

[mzkenzii]

the reason why they yell at you for moving is cause it effects the brainwaves on the EEG lols so its harder for them to tell whats what.

I remember when I had my EEG it was really annoying and uncomfortable and took soo long. took them a while to diagnose me with JME though, still get the twitches which is annoying. and when my boyfriend sees me have a gmal it makes him worry alot but atleast he cares lols :) im lucky he didnt ditch when I told him.

[feugoeagle533]

hi... again..... IM BORED lol sorry that has nothing to do with your video but ya.... sorry im gonna subscribe :)

[searchthelove]

I love this video...ur really good to create the video...i love the musik the photos i love all of this video...

[WishUponAJonas]

i know!!

that junk was gross lol

and they always yelled at me if i moved my legs..i couldn't help it though,its such a weird feeling ahah

[NewL30]

yeah, the thing that i hated the most was the hyperventilation cause i thought i was gonna pass out every time i had to do it, and like my whole body was like numb and i'd cross my legs or something and they'd yell at me lol. for the 48 hour one they also attached the electrodes with this crazy adhesive so they wouldn't come off like when i slept, and it took me a week to get that stuff out of my hair, i was shedding white stuff like crazy lol.