I'll never get used to it.

This video isn't about JD. I started making this video the other month, since it's coming round to that time of year again. I always try and act like everything is alright but I'm only human, things get ontop of you at times. Just feeling weighed down by a lot of things just now, missing my dad, and other personal issues that just won't fade.

Not looking for any attention, I just wanted to put a video up given the time it is.
I've learned to take alot of positives from life, but it's ok to feel upset about things. I've never really hid from the truth of the issue, the fact that he's not here but I can say I probably brush over it more so. It's just hard.

Hope all is ok
Becs
xx

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[HeartbreakInSterIero]

I know exactly what you're going through misses, and all I will say, is when you feel down or upset, let it all out - every bit of it. It's okay to. It's GOOD to. I have a habit of holding in anything hurtful, but it does more damage than good, honestly. You're an incredible girl Becs, I have no doubt your dad would not be SO unbelievably proud of everything that you do, it will get better, soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@HeartbreakInSterIero thank you so much xx

[gemmahaywardx]

becs this is an amazing video, its really stunning.. you and JD are phenomenal! i cant say i know what its like to lose your dad, but youre so strong for carrying on with everything the way you do. youre such an inspiration, i say it all the time, i cant express how much i really admire you and your attitude! your videos, and especially your descriptions are always so heartfelt and really mean something to you! they have a real impact on me and a lot of other people too. you're incredible becs<3

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@gemmahaywardx that comment really means alot, thank you x

[Smurfylol54]

such a moving and inspiring video :'( cried all the way through it!! love JD :) my heart is with you all the way... stay strong honey bee :) you're attitude is the most... phenomenal thing ever, and you are so strong!! absolutely beautiful, inspiring video... even starting to re-think my attitude to life haha :) love and hugs!! xxxxxxxxx

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@Smurfylol54 thank you, really means alot to me xx

[tulip4427]

i cried through this video:( i know what its like to loose someone, this was my second christmas without my dad, and because i was only 13 i found it hard to cope, and i took my anger out on everyone, but when i was with my horses i was a different person. it is still hard, and im very nervous around people now, but my horses keep me strong. your horse is so beautiful, and your riding is amazing. xxx

[HunniiBaybiie123]

It's always hard at Christmas and stuff without a parent, you can be the most upbeat person in the world but it's bound to hit you at some point; just like you said, you're only human and it's no wonder you were feeling a bit down. This video is really lovely. Hope you're feeling better now, since you uploaded this a few weeks ago. You're honestly a very strong and brave person. X

[betterinthesaddle279]

this is beautiful <3 and so are u :)

[lalalittlejohn]

This is my favorite youtube video ever, Its so beautiful and means so much. Would you by any chance let e use the audio if i linked through your channel and gave you full credit.xxxx

[issykingshowjumper]

this is such a beautiful video, hope your ok becs, thinking of you! JD is looking great xxx

[EmmaLovesScooby]

this is so stunning. you two make an excellent team and your dad would be so proud of everything. it's always gonna happen every year but just let it all out, it's definitely not a bad thing. love this video and the audio too! what's the song? put me in tears after like the second line! xxx

[laurenxturnerxxx]

this is amazing, so stunning! you and jd are so fantastic together, amazing team! x

[Smurfylol54]

@xxxbeccaxrxxx no problem :) <3 xxxxx

[sandybeckstar]

hope ur ok , this is a awsome video and ur an amazing rider i hope u enjoy a merry xmas:D:D