Sleep tight little star ♥

Words cannot explain the shock and pain and anger and... just complete and utter devestation. :(
Most of you will know my darling little Sam, and I say "my" in a very loose term.... because although it will always somehow feel that way to me, I sold him three months ago to the best owner I ever could have, to Joanne.
Sam, or Merlin as he was then named, tragically passed away on Sunday morning due to colic with further complications - please don't ask for details, It's heartbreaking enough and it's not my place to tell.

But I just wanted to make this, a little tribute to genuinly the best pony I have ever known in my entire life, and for Joanne - literally can't stop thinking about you, I'm so sorry :(. Sam had an absolute heart of gold, he was SO willing and eager to learn and had his wholeeee future ahead of him with Joanne, it was so exciting waiting to hear what they both got up to, and all that they had planned. It really is absolutely devestating. :'(

I bought Sam in July of 2010 as an untouched wild three year old, and spent ages with him on the ground and then backed him and brought him on, getting him to the stage where he competed in showing and in his first 2 classes he won a 3rd and a 4th... I am so immeasurably proud of him. What he done and the attitude he had and the joy he gave, all in his short 4 and a half years, was remarkable.

He taught me SO much while giving me so much happiness... he was a delight and pleasure to own and I'm so privivledged to have had the time getting to know him that I did. Everyone that met him instantly fell in love, he had the ability to light up your face no matter what was going on, he always had the attitude you could have wished for and never had a bad bone in his body... he was the kind of horse that just constantly had his ears forward and a happy little expression. I'm SO going to miss that :(

It was heartbreaking to then sell him on, though I knew that was the oonly way I could have bought him in the first place, as a project... but when Joanne came along - I knew everything would be alright. She was PERFECT. everything about Joanne gave me confidence that Sam was going to the best place he could possibly go to. We were so lucky to find someone so suited to him :)

Sam left me and moved to just a little under 2 hours away with Joanne at the end of september, and it absolutely broke my heart, but I knew I could never find anyone better and that he would be happy for the rest of his life, I don't regret selling him to her for a second and I'm so pleased he gave her the same joy he gave me, even if it was only for a short time.

I have no doubts that he was happy right untill his last breath. Joanne gave him everything she possibly could, it's just so cruel that he was taken away from her after such a short, but incredibly strong partnership. There really was no telling where their partnership could take them otherwise.

If I'm honest, I don't quite know how I'm going to cope losing him... everything I think of him I tear up. This was an incredibly hard video to put together... My heart goes out to all of you who have suffered the same tragedy, and especially Joanne, I just, I don't even know what to say :(

I lost my gran at the start of this year and just when I thought I couldn't lose anything else.... just when I was beginining to get back to normal... I honestly don't know what I would do if I didn't have the support of all my family and friends, and everyone on here, and especially Jumanji - who learnt how to smile tonight for me. :)

Life can be so, so painfully cruel... and fighting through it is one of the most frightening and difficult of things. I just wish this didn't happen. I wish he was still here. I wish he was still making everyone smile. I wish he was still giving Joanne the happiness he gave me.
Sometimes I wish just isn't enough :(

RIP Sammy, you literally are my little star and I can't express enough how painfull this news is to bring to you all. :(
I'm SO sorry Joanne, this was never meant to happen :( You are SO strong and please know that Sam loved every second of being with you, you are exactly the kind of horsewoman any horse is lucky to have. He could NOT have had a better home. I am so, so sorry :'(

Love you Sammy (L) I will never, EVER forget you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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[HeartbreakInSterIero]

Seriously guys, I cannot even begin to express how much all your kind, thoughtful words mean at such a horrible time. :'( Thank you so much, I really really do appreciate all the wonderful support, and I'm so sorry to all who are going through the same thing. My heart goes out to poor Joanne, and I hope that you are coping, please stay strong xxxxxx

[jesspopbang]

Coley, you know how amazing I think you are and what an incredible pony you turned Sam into. There's not a lot anyone can say to ease yours and Joanne's pain but with time you can reach some sort of closure. Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened xxxxxxxxxxxx

[PersilBunnies]

OMG Cole What happened? :( You have to inbox me - Its Sophia by the way, i used to have Jerry, the coloured?? :'( Im so sorry :( xxx

[jdforever123]

I am extremly sorry to hear about your loss. He looks amazing and he always will be amazing-x

[magicmomentsx]

I know how you feel, RIP, Sam/Merlin<3 my pony got colic on christmas eve, and was operated at 4am on christmas day.. she pulled through<3 , stay strong, he's looking down on you, you've made him proud, i'm so sorry for your loss<3 my condolences to you, your family, and to Joanne<3

[WeMissJess]

OMG:( This video is so pretty.. And maked me cry:( I'm so sorry... :( Stay strong girl!:(

Rip Sam :( xxx

[TheBlessedEquestrian]

This video hits me.

[TheLittleCommandor]

This is so so beautiful, im so sorry to hear that news/: RIP Sammy, You will never be forgotten!! <3 Hope you are okay....

[Doubleauseven]

I'm so sorry. He had the best time any pony could ever wish for with both of you. A new star in the sky for Sam. RIP little fella, gone but never forgotten & loved forever xxx

[teik94]

rip sam :'( <3<3<3

[SuzieLxx]

This is beautiful <3 Sammy was such an amazing pony with such a future. Life is too cruel sometimes. He was always happy and loved and it was a miracle that both you and Joanne were so perfect for him <3 I am so sorry for you and Joanne <3 R.I.P Sammy - an amazing pony xxxx

[SmellieT98]

This is so beautiful, I am in tears watching this..he was an absolute stunner and the bond between you two was amazing! Makes me so angry how the most talented and beautiful things in life have to go, i can only imagine how much pain you are in right now. Just remember all your good times with him and how much love there was between the two of you, it will hurt for a while but eventually you'll be able to remember how amazing he was positively and he will be in your heart forever <3