Where I'm At In Transition

Maybe it sounds like I've turned 180 degrees in this whole process, but it wasn't feeling right anymore. Wish I had made some videos about my process, but I didn't feel very comfortable with it at the time.

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People & Blogs

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• ftm
• trans
• genderqueer

[ilikethesharpie]

I've been watching your videos since you first started posting (creepy, I know, sorry), and I just wanted to tell you that -- all of your gender 'things' aside that you're dealing with, you just seem like a really decent person with a big brain who actually cares about the struggles that women/men deal with with gender stereotypes. I wish you happiness wherever you find it, however you find it. Enjoy your life. You are not strange, you are a gem.

[MeepMarmoset]

@ilikethesharpie Not creepy at all. Thanks for finding some kind of relevancy in what I have to say, and taking the time to watch me despite what I now see as narcissistic behavior. I hope that I can help as many people as possible get past gender all together. Thank you for the positive comment and the support. Peace.

[cameraboi1229]

I have a friend who also de-transitioned due to some dependency issues. If you would like their name as a source of support let me know I would be happy to help. Best to you.

[MeepMarmoset]

@cameraboi1229 Thanks for the comment, I wouldn't call what I'm doing detransitioning, just taking it in a different direction: a more natural approach, but perhaps your friend and I may have some stuff in common, and I'm not against communicating with anyone who could help along the way, or open my eyes and heart to another perspective.

[LoganJHayden]

Hey, it's great to see you again. It seems like you have overcome great obstacles, and it takes a brave person to speak in public about it. Stay strong, and be yourself, whenever you find yourself.

[MeepMarmoset]

@LoganJHayden Thanks! I plan on being myself as much as possible. :) Hope you are well also.

[JesseW213]

amazing video, thank you for sharing<3

[SirDevinaire]

Thanks for such an honest and transparent update. I wish you the best in your journey. I'm glad that you have begun a stage of life in which you are feeling more comfortable with & clear on your personhood. Truthfully, I think it would be very beneficial for a lot of people to listen to your perspective and reflect deeply on what they feel is best for them. Life is a progression. We all begin and end at different places. I believe, that the mode of transportation we take matters most =Self Love.

[Popeslave]

I'm always happy to see videos from you! I would like to ask you some more questions about your experience but don't want to invade your privacy (you've already shared so much). Please let me know if you're open to an email.

[kylebraylen]

Very honest video. Only great respect for you here. Takes alot of courage to really pour your heart into a video like that.

[AllBooks1]

=)!!

[cameraboi1229]

@MeepMarmoset Sure, I hope I didn't offend you. It can be hard for others to coneceptualize the appropriate term for a queer/trans person who stops taking hormones or pursuing previous transition goals. I think I get what you mean. The reference to my friend was really about the process of finding comfort in a queer body and space in society. And also some of the lingering/permanent changes to ones body after years of T. In her case she has been off T for several years and is now pregnant!