Hey guys welcome back it is wk 15 and we r talking about top surgery. before i do that i just wanted to say sorry to warren because i don't have time to put subtitles or write it up. I thought I was going to have time but I just haven't had time today it's been very very stressful and you know how long it takes. The other thing is, i'm going to say this right at the beginning so you will all see it. AUDITION FOR T MATES cause there are definitely two spots. Unsure as to which to spots, but audition and be a part of...ok... so that is my little rant. Top surgery; when tay eventually gets top surgery. I say eventually because he's not even on hormones yet. and he wants to... well.. he first got diagnosed with gender identity disorder october last year... so yah... so... he hasnt been on hormones yet so i say when he eventually gets surgery cause its going to be some time in the future. He has been told in the clinic that hes with that they like to put guys forward for surgery after they've been with the clinic for at least a year... so fingers crossed he may get hormones august tme but since he's been with the clinic sept/oct kinda time he might get surgery sept/oct time so that seems like a long time but... when he does get surgery he'll need to have a double mastectomy because as he puts it his breasts are so fucking huge. um. that uh yah. There are no two ways about it they're too big to do anything else... so they have to all go. Which is going to be strange cause he's such a moley guy -- he has moles and freckles and everything there. So you get used to looking at things and he'll loose some of those moles and freckles and what not so it's going to be a bit strange. I'm looking forward to the surgery for the usual reasons like he'll be more comfortable confident and all that. eventually we'll be able to go swimming together and he'll be more comfortable cause he's not waiting for these two boys to dissapear or whatever. I'm looking forward to when we're kissing and its only me moving my boobs. I can wait for that day. They get in the way and I can't wait for them to go away. I'm worried for the actual procedure cause it's a massive thing and in any surgery things can and do go wrong. And Tay's never been under anesthetic or having a surgery or whatnot. I'm also not looking forward to waiting on him hand and foot. The flu can be a big deal for him much less when there's drains and fluid and whatnot coming out of him. God i sound selfish but... no... you know what i mean. those things are there. they frustrate you. its not like that has any kind of factor in it. it doesnt. but i'm just rambling and those things will be worrying me. sorry i've been looking down there and playing with a wire and what not. Those are kind of my only worries. Tay is such a strong person and the whole sort of process has really dampened that down and got him depressed and its heart breaking to see someone have to put on those binders and squeeze himself into those things and be in pain/tears when he finally takes it off. I've put one of those things on they're horrible. I can't wait for the day when he doesn't have to do that. At the end of the day I just want to rip it off em-- I wouldn't do that, that would be horrendous. But... yah... You know like china where they would bind their feet to make em look better. Its pain and torture. It's like that... i realize that its out of necessity and whatnot i realize that. But its terrible as a partner to watch him go through that every morning. I hate it when he wears two cause he's super concious about his breasts or whatnot. and we had a big fight yest. we had a photo shoot a couples thing cause we don't have any pictures of us and i liked one where he was really cute but he hated it. why? because you could see his breasts. i dont think you could see them. i dont generally look or notice them. but for him they're like on his mind 24/7 which is understandable cause they're so big. i'm only a c and his are like 2x the size. and its horrendous and horrific. If you're with guys with small breasts than you're lucky. i know they won't see the bright side... but... and i know this will come across wrong but with trans guys the bigger the breasts the worse it is... that's just what i've seen idk. but yah, i hope this was helpful. ican't wait til they're gone. I have not worries apart from surgical issues but that's just sugery- if he was getting his tonsils removed i would be worried. but that's a gf issue. can't wait til they're gone. yah. gonna go before i run out of time. k guys, love you!
This is all thanks to kris! thank you! thank you so much!!! xxx
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TMatesFTM 15 - Top Surgery - Sarahby TMatesFTM537 views
you have such a great sense of humor :)
my surgery is about 7 months away, and i've been bogged down in the paperwork and the risks and thinking about signing my life away, it was good to laugh about it
HappyHyperHippie 2 years ago
Yeah i think the dysphoria is going to be there not matter what its just different guys focus on different things. xx
hannahduncan85 2 years ago
intro is just made using imovie, it's in themes and then just added some photos, easy as that really cause it all kind of does it for ya! :) sorry if that's not very helpful, lol yeah and then i just add different music every week. that's it, not very mysterious or clever i'm afraid, I think Eric did a "how to make an intro vid" once, check out livelifeunrated, see if you can find it! xxx
hannahduncan85 2 years ago
Hey unrelated question, how do you make your intro? It is rad... Related info.. I hate binding because it is so damn uncomfortable but you gotta do what you gotta do for results. I look forward to the day I can swim in nothing but board shorts.
WolfARiffic 2 years ago
Another comment- but, coming from the gf of a guy with smaller breasts I can maybe agree a bit with the dysphoria being less, however it goes to other things- sawyer despises his nipples, says theyre too big, too puffy- it really is a hard time for him and tbf, im sure he could get away without binding, but he's too self conscious about his nipples showing through fabric.
blackasher 2 years ago
hehehe, i'm sure I wont be able to resist sticking them in my intro don't you worry! lol xxx
hannahduncan85 2 years ago
Binding when I had a DDD chest was absolutely horrific. Luckily for me, about a month after I started binding I had a breast reduction to make them a B - and while I still have dysphoria over them, they can at least be bound now without putting me in searing pain.
evanrauhanen 2 years ago
Aww, bravo! Great vid as usual! I'm only a B and I hate my chest and bind all the time, I can't imagine being bigger. Major world suck.
sillyyetsuccinct 2 years ago
1)I cant wait to be able to go swimming with my boyfriend either
2)I hope we get to see some of these pictures from yesterdays photoshoot! :)
blackasher 2 years ago 2
i think ur pretty right on about the bigger the breasts, the more the dysphoria. i was small prior to chest surgery and i was still completely self conscious and would always wear 2 or more binders, can't even imagine if i was bigger. i know it's super hard. props to you for being such a supportive gf for your man!
lmhschck 2 years ago 2