As a victim of a violent crime, I don't feel sorry for any man that tries to murder a human being. I've lived in my own emotional prison that never seems to go away, since 2002 and sleeping with a gun under your pillow every night is not the way I ever dreamed my life would turn out to be. I hope he never gets out alive. Patty
@kinneycutie Thank you for writing those kind words. I will tell you, though, that the grief does not end. Even if it is not on the forefront of my mind all the time, it is always there, stuck. Makes every aspect of my life, from sleep to work, more difficult and surely does not make me a hot commodity on the dating scene if even I would choose to try that again. I will follow though with the pen pal thing. Found a site w/all kinds of advice, like never have an 'email penpal'! AGain, thanks.
@110557chantilly Thank you for your supportive words. Years will pass but this will always be a part of me, like something dug into a shoe that won't detach. Also makes it harder to meet people as no one, or only very special people would want someone with baggage like I have. Not only would they have to love me, but would also have to love Pj, as he is, even if I fall in love again, always in my heart. R'ships are hard enough without dealing with a widower/murder/PTSD, etc. Again, thank you.
@110557chantilly Thx for your kind words. Therapy has helped so much. Didn't notice I was avoiding certain people as 'those' people were never seen where we lived (except that night) but when came back to NY, and noted that I was Xing streets. Became self aware and did not like what I saw. When Pj was killed, DA asked me to agree to death penalty and I agreed. Month later, I took it back as then I would be like he was. Matthew Shepherd was the boy crucified in Laramie, WY. Again, thanks.
@sarmadasco But, through it all my dear friend follow your dreams, don't give up on fighting for justice. Come with me, and let's tear down that hatred fence. Remember the fence story a few years ago? A young man was toremented, tied up to a fence, and left to die because of his sexual preference? Someone found the young man tied up to there fence he was severely beaten, and frozen to death. All because he was gay. Don't give up...I am pulling for you. chantilly110557@yahoo.com
@sarmadasco I feel your pain, and your ager Sarmadasco. Moving foward it is difficult for you, especially when there is hate crimes because of your sexual preference. You are not alone my dear friend, even though I am not gay, but I understand what you are going through. Through the violent attacks that was put upon you, and the loss of your deepest partner that was caused by the vicious hatred attack. You will rise above all this some day, society does look at things in a different way.
Excellent video had to share on my FB page.
Chablis1966 1 day ago
As a victim of a violent crime, I don't feel sorry for any man that tries to murder a human being. I've lived in my own emotional prison that never seems to go away, since 2002 and sleeping with a gun under your pillow every night is not the way I ever dreamed my life would turn out to be. I hope he never gets out alive. Patty
pattyw831 1 week ago
congratulation Hudson link <3
VMATOVI 2 months ago
@kinneycutie Thank you for writing those kind words. I will tell you, though, that the grief does not end. Even if it is not on the forefront of my mind all the time, it is always there, stuck. Makes every aspect of my life, from sleep to work, more difficult and surely does not make me a hot commodity on the dating scene if even I would choose to try that again. I will follow though with the pen pal thing. Found a site w/all kinds of advice, like never have an 'email penpal'! AGain, thanks.
sarmadasco 2 months ago
@110557chantilly Thank you for your supportive words. Years will pass but this will always be a part of me, like something dug into a shoe that won't detach. Also makes it harder to meet people as no one, or only very special people would want someone with baggage like I have. Not only would they have to love me, but would also have to love Pj, as he is, even if I fall in love again, always in my heart. R'ships are hard enough without dealing with a widower/murder/PTSD, etc. Again, thank you.
sarmadasco 2 months ago
@110557chantilly Thx for your kind words. Therapy has helped so much. Didn't notice I was avoiding certain people as 'those' people were never seen where we lived (except that night) but when came back to NY, and noted that I was Xing streets. Became self aware and did not like what I saw. When Pj was killed, DA asked me to agree to death penalty and I agreed. Month later, I took it back as then I would be like he was. Matthew Shepherd was the boy crucified in Laramie, WY. Again, thanks.
sarmadasco 2 months ago
No problem, just hang in there...
110557chantilly 4 months ago
@sarmadasco But, through it all my dear friend follow your dreams, don't give up on fighting for justice. Come with me, and let's tear down that hatred fence. Remember the fence story a few years ago? A young man was toremented, tied up to a fence, and left to die because of his sexual preference? Someone found the young man tied up to there fence he was severely beaten, and frozen to death. All because he was gay. Don't give up...I am pulling for you. chantilly110557@yahoo.com
110557chantilly 4 months ago
@sarmadasco I feel your pain, and your ager Sarmadasco. Moving foward it is difficult for you, especially when there is hate crimes because of your sexual preference. You are not alone my dear friend, even though I am not gay, but I understand what you are going through. Through the violent attacks that was put upon you, and the loss of your deepest partner that was caused by the vicious hatred attack. You will rise above all this some day, society does look at things in a different way.
110557chantilly 4 months ago
I wish this was available to inmates in Texas.
kd5cqq 5 months ago